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Paint Correcting and Coating My New Model 3 Myself

2020.10.21 01:05 220McKenz Paint Correcting and Coating My New Model 3 Myself

My wife and I got our Model 3 the end of September. I am a hobbyist detailer, and finally got a few spare days to correct the paint and put a coating on the car. This is more suited for autodetailing, but you Tesla folk are admirably knowledgeable in paint protection so I am going to put it here too. There’s a lot here. I write these reviews in chunks over the course of days as thoughts come to me when I’m working on the car or buying products for the car. Feel free to just check out the album and ignore the post here. The post here is more general philosophy and approach, the album is the walk-through with photos.
 

Full Album – 47 Images

 
By the time you purchase all this stuff, it’ll run you about the cost of a professional coating installation, so I’m not really advocating this as a DYI job, but here’s everything I used for the curious minds.
 
Wash Products:
Decontamination Products:
Residue Removal / Stripping Products:
 
Conventional wisdom in the detailing world would tell you to just dilute IPA 50-50 with water and call it a day. In almost all cases, I’m sure that’s fine. However, if you read Mike Phillips’ book on paint correction he mentions actually seeing damage from undiluted IPA when left to dwell on paint. For that reason, I always dilute to 10 or 15% (Optimum recommends 15% as well). But because IPA is most commonly sold at 70% and 90% concentrations, and because we all use spray bottles/containers of different volumes, it can be kind of cumbersome in the midst of a detail to figure out the appropriate math to refill your IPA bottle. I finally got tired enough of this that I just sat down one day and fumbled through a formula. Maybe this is common sense for some of you guys, but it wasn’t for me:  
Ounces of IPA to be mixed in water = (n * d) * (1 + (1 – i))
 
Where:
n = capacity of bottle you wish to fill up (in ounces)
d = target dilution (in percent, e.g. 0.15)
i = dilution of IPA bottle you purchased (in percent, e.g. 0.70)
For example, if I have a 20 ounce spray bottle I want to get to 15% alcohol using 70% concentrated IPA…  
(20 * 0.15) * (1 + (1 – 0.7)) = 3 * (1.3) = 3.9  
So my 20 ounce bottle will be filled with 3.9 ounces of 70% IPA and 16.1 ounces of water in order to have a 15% alcohol concentration.
 
Paint Correction Products:
Coating Products:
Finishing / Dressing Products:
 
Process: Thorough wash with a traditional surfactant, iron decontamination, physical clay bar decontamination, quick IPA wipedown, 1 to 2-step paint correction depending on severity of defects, glass correction, second IPA wipedown, paint coating application, glass coating application, dressing application.
 
I’ll lay out my general thoughts and philosophy here, and then in the album there are detailed notes with photos on each step.  
Coating vs PPF: In general, a PPF of some kind is the unequivocal king of paint protection. It protects against some physical damage like road debris and minor rock chipping. Regardless of what claims you hear, a coating can’t do that. A coating will do a great job protecting against some environmental contaminants and will make the car easy to wash. It’ll also make it look really great, but the physics of a coating just don’t make it something that can hold a candle to a PPF when it comes to physical abrasion. To put this in perspective, clear coat is about 1.5 to 2 mils thick (you can see this, albeit in a boneheaded way, in my photo album using a paint gauge). A clear bra will be somewhere in the neighborhood of 6 – 9 mils of additional protective thickness on top of your clear coat. A coating, by contrast, will be somewhere in the 1 to 4 micron range; 0.08 mils give or take.
The newer films even have some self-healing properties, which is super cool. The downside of PPF, though, is cost. Even if you only get some kind of clear bra or partial wrap, a high quality PPF will still run you into the low four figures. I’ll qualify that a little bit here and say that you get what you pay for. I’m sure there’s someone out there offering a full PPF install for $500. I also guarantee that film will yellow in 1 year and you’ll have scratches all over your paint where the film was (attempted to be) cut to size. The quality of installer and the quality of product will vary greatly, and it can be hard to weed out the diamonds in the rough. If you’re curious to see what a horrendous wrap job can look like, check out this video. Despite how simple the concept is, wrapping of any kind, wet vs dry (PPF vs vinyl) is really time-intensive and technical.
For me, the coating is a better value-proposition than a PPF because I can install the coating myself with a few hundred bucks of materials. I understand that is not the position most people are in. If you can stomach the price tag of a quality protective film, go for it.  
Maintenance care vs overhaul care: I generally use a rinseless wash – Optimum No Rinse – as my maintenance washing product. It’s a wonderful product and makes the washing experience a million more times convenient and simple. I also find it to be really gentle, which is great. However, when I want a little more aggressive and thorough wash, I go back to a traditional soap.
In my experience, and my impression using the dozens of car care products I’ve tried, I find traditional surfactants to be more aggressive than ONR. ONR is based on polymer chemistry, not surfactant chemistry, so it doesn’t have the typical hydrophobic and hydrophilic soap molecules that “lifts” oils from surfaces. I’m not a formulation chemist or anything close to it, but I happen to also make soap as a hobby so I know just enough about soap molecules to be not totally ignorant, and it’s the same chemistry no matter the application. In my experience, waxes and sealants wear off much faster when using traditional surfactant soaps as compared to ONR as a regular maintenance wash product. That’s not based on anything other than my anecdotal experience, and I don’t have any science to back that up; but I’ve been convinced of that over the years watching these products interact on my vehicles.
The point here is that I’m using a traditional car soap because I want whatever extra lifting power is in the soap. I need the paint to be as raw as possible for the polish and the coating.  
Model 3 and Glass: This is the first car I’ve used a glass coating on. To this point, I’ve thought of glass coatings to be far less useful than paint coatings. Glass is much harder than clear coat, so it doesn’t take damage as easily as paint does, and because it’s transparent, it doesn’t reflect light the same way paint does. Which means defects aren’t as visible. For someone like me, who’s been taking good care of my own cars for years and not seen any major glass deficiencies, the value of a glass coating wasn’t there.
However, the Model 3 is different in a couple ways. First, it has a LOT of glass surface, so there’s just more of it to consider. Second, it has a lot of horizontal glass surface (the roof). This is pretty unique, and it means that that surface area is quite exposed to any type of contaminant falling from above, not to mention direct sunlight. It also means that my wife is going to set her coffee on glass while she opens the door instead of paint. Third, we had the windows tinted in addition to the roof glass being OEM heavily tinted. That means that the glass will actually show some visible defects more so than if the glass was not tinted. All of a sudden, the value proposition for glass protection of some kind was material.
However, I am not using it on the windshield. It’d probably be ok, but a common complaint is that glass coatings interfere with wiper operation. Chattering is the typical symptom. This effect is case-by-case and car-by-car, but just not something I want to deal with.  
Some thoughts and praise on some of the brands and products I’m using: Just my take, no need to hold it as gospel. I haven’t used every product in existence. There are a lot of great products out there and you should use what you feel drawn to.
  • AMMO: Larry Kosilla’s boutique brand. Sold in rather small quantities, expensive on a per-unit basis compared to other alternatives. However, to me, Larry is one of the most authoritative, honest, and even-handed voices in detailing. He’s a huge supporter of enthusiast education and his methods, products, and processes are really data-driven and based on good science, which I really appreciate. He’s done more for the enthusiast than perhaps anyone out there so I like supporting him. His products are also formulated by him (and whoever he works with), which is awesome. It is far more time consuming an expensive than private labeling; he cares deeply about the performance of his products, which I respect. I like AMMO’s traditional soap products, and the tire dressing, “Mud”, is still the best I’ve used.
  • Rupes: As far as I’m concerned, Rupes DA polishers are second to none. The form factor, the ergonomics, the power, and the fit-and-finish… there’s some good polishers, but Rupes is exceptional. Switching to my 3” Porter Cable after using the LHR Mark III is like watching TV from 30 years ago versus the ultra-HD experience of today.
  • Optimum: I’m using Optimum Gloss Coat here as my paint coating. I generally use CQuartz when I’m coating cars, but the last CQuartz coating I applied on my wife’s old Accord saw noticeable degradation inside of a year. With the way I maintain our cars, I don’t know why that was, so I’m switching it up this time. What I appreciate about Optimum is that it’s an American company that produces all of their products in-house formulated by one person, David Ghodoussi. He’s a PhD polymer and organic chemist, and prior to starting Optimum, he worked in R&D in paint formulation in the automotive industry. He is exactly the person who you want making your paint protection products. And because Optimum manufactures their own products, they’re able to ensure a degree of quality and consistency that is tough to come by elsewhere. It’s really, really cool that all the products are formulated and manufactured in such a tightly controlled ecosystem. The one downside of Gloss Coat is the fact that it isn’t the “latest and greatest” Optimum coating. Optimum has a professional line of products reserved for certified installers / businesses. I can’t get my hands on Opti-Coat Pro (I’ve tried), so I’m a little salty about not being able to use their “best” coating, and it’s why I’ve opted for CQuartz in the past. I’ll get over it... maybe… but for now, we’ll see how Gloss Coat does. I’ve read good things. Side note: I think ONR is the best and most versatile detailing product on the market. I’ve used it for years for many different applications. It is my washing product, my quick detailer, my clay lubricant, my first-to-reach-for interior cleaner, and I use it as an additive in the reservoir of my steamer. It always delivers and I recommend it every chance I get.
  • The Rag Company: All of the towels I use are from TRC. To me, they are the best microfiber retailer anywhere. They have a very knowledgeable staff and a sophisticated procurement supply chain to source from the best microfiber manufacturing facilities around the world. Also, a huge portion of their online presence is devoted to auto detailing education; podcasts, YouTube videos, etc. They partner with some very authoritative voices in the industry (including Yvan Lacroix of Optimum!). They’re very “in” with the enthusiast detailer and businessman alike. My favorite towels from them are the Dry Me a River waffle weave drying towel, the Edgeless 365 for general rinseless washing, and the Eagle Edgeless for LSP residue removal and buffing clean. They also always ship your order lighting fast and prices for the quality of towel are very reasonable. Thanks for reading.
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2020.10.20 20:25 mr_tyler_durden Notes and Highlights of Kentucky Governor Andy Beshear’s Live Update October 20, 2020

Notes and Highlights of Kentucky Governor Andy Beshear’s Live Update October 20, 2020
Notes by mr_tyler_durden and Daily Update Team
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2020.10.20 15:57 MissEvieMoo Update: The ‘calming’ joys from JustNoMIL and JustNoMom as we approach labour

We’re coming up for 41 weeks now, expecting our first little one (DC). I’m writing this update barely 24 hours since sharing our last round of drama with both DH’s mother any my own (frankly worse) mom, as I’m trying to process the news we’ve just had from the hospital.
We’ve been asking for weeks for parents to call down, stop constantly contacting us, and to let us make the first move/contact as our due date draws near. First time parents, covid restrictions, all that jazz - combined with our midwife advising we keep things as calm and stress-free as possible to promote relaxation and avoid unnessicary stress/panic ahead of the big day.
My JNMom has been the worst for ignoring our wishes and putting her own ‘worry’ (translation: need to be very true of attention and able to gossip/get the news before anyone else and share said news against our wishes) above our and our little ones needs. Anyway - I’ve ranted about that before. Thank you so much everyone who has shared their advice and well-wishes; I’ve been awful at responding, partially due to trying not to interact with social media too much as we approached and passed our due date, but also because my anxiety has just been going through the roof as the days have stretched on and there’s still been no progress. I appreciate and have read every message though, so thank you - truly - for the advice, links, and encouragement.
This week, as we’ve passed our due date, we have a number of appointments set up to meet with our consultant, sonographer, midwife, and a plethora of other experts who are technically just checking baby is still growing ok and I haven’t changed my mind about wanting/needing intervention. We have had no complications along the way - no high blood pressures, swelling, pre eclampsia, gestational diabetes, instances of reduced movement, nothing. Things couldn’t have gone more smoothly medically speaking; so there’s been no reason for anyone to be more worried or on edge.
Try telling that to my clingy, overbearing, self-centred mother. We got to 9pm last night - the evening after a midwife appointment but before a hospital one. DH had been working all day, I’d been firmly sticking to NC. I’ve not responded to anyone but DH and a couple of friends over the past week or so - despite my JNMom’s multiple attempts a day to contact me through multiple different apps, texts, and contacting DH to get to me.
We finally get the chance to sit down together after he’s finished working late (to make up for taking time to go to the appointments with me - something I’m completely fine/happy with), we’re trying to relax after a late dinner and just enjoy time the two of us. I notice his phone keeps pinging with messages. It’s JNMom.
DH: your mom really wants to have a zoom call. Do you feel up for it?
Me: no.
Guys - I didn’t even try and justify it, just like you suggested. Just no. I’m tired all the time, evenings are when DC is at their most active with kicking/movement, my lower back is killing me whenever I sit or lay anywhere but my computer chair (and even that only helps for so long).
DH, bless him, just asked if I was sure and dealt with it for me. He even switched to our group chat again to try and call out her going behind my back to try and get to me through DH/ get a different answer by asking us independently when she doesn’t get the answer she wants from one of us.
Queue lots of messages ‘promising not to ask lots of questions’ and saying she ‘only wants to see how I am’. Like seriously - DH has said how I am. You are already asking more questions than we want to answer every time you message and pester us first, when we have SPECIFICALLY ASKED that people wait for us to contact them first. She’s even tried her other fav topic manipulations - gif spamming, and hinting that she’s just had an big, unexpected expense’ that she’s going to have to pay off over the next three months.
After her last ‘big expense’ led to us covering car repairs for her that she’s still paying back (though she miraculously had the money to take out contracts for new Apple products - phone, watch, and iPad Pro) I flat-out told DH I don’t care what the expense is, we aren’t helping with it unless she directly asks and it is a legitimate need. (She has a habit of ‘hinting’ over and over about money, saying she couldn’t possibly ask us again, then immediately saying yes and paying things back slowly over months - only to ‘lose track’ of how much is left, need to borrow more in the meantime, or re-borrow days after paying back. This time it’s an unexpected vet bill as someone doesn’t have insurance. We’re just about to give birth, but sure, tell us all about your vet bill.)
Of course that’s not the end of it. DC has me getting up 10+ times a night for bathroom breaks and to the and walk off backache. I occasionally check my phone or queue up a new podcast episode if I’m struggling to get back to sleep. I glance at my lock screen: it’s 3am, and JNMom has left a freaking voicemail. At 3AM! Who thinks that is a good time for a call or to leave a message?!
I’m leaving that one to DH to deal with. I refuse to even open it. Since, she’s tried facetiming me multiple times - I’ve ignored them all - each time saying ‘sorry for bothering you. I just wanted to catch up.’
GO AWAY. What part of ‘we want to stay calm and contact people first’ is so hard?!
Add to that JNMIL’s wonderful messages to start off our day:
DH had let his usually OK parents know we had a hospital appointment today to just check baby’s growth etc. He also made the mistake of offering a bit more info: that if everything looked good, we weren’t going to go with an induction.
JNMIL: I wouldn’t resist. Just go with what they say.
I see red. It doesn’t sound like much I know, but DH and I spent months arguing over my fear of induction. Induction can last for days without working. Hospitals in our area until just a couple of weeks ago were making mums go through the entire induction process without any birthing partners or visitors. Just about every ‘birth experience’ group I’ve followed (I know, I know, listen to them but don’t take them as gospel) has been flooded with personal experiences about how it can be more painful than labour itself, how it can make the pain feel more intense/come on much quicker than allowing things to progress naturally, how those who had both natural And induced births would never try induction again.
DH took a lot of talking things through with, he didn’t really get it when I explained, but when our private midwife + hypnobirthing instructors explained more about the importance of choice, promoting calming environments, reducing anxiety to reduce pain etc, it finally clicked for him that of course we would take any steps to protect DC if things went wrong - but it’s just as important that I feel heard and safe and calm, and that’s only going to happen if he’s 100% in my corner and advocating for what I’m comfortable with.
Having JNMIL crapping all over that isn’t what I needed to wake up to. I brought it up with a pretty shitty tone to be honest, letting DH know that was the last thing we needed to hear today. Guys - he agreed! He dealt with it, saying we already know what we are comfortable with and don’t need any input. He just shut that shit right down. I felt so supported and so glad that we hadn’t backslid on that area.
Now for the bad news. Our appointments didn’t go as we had hoped. I’m sat here at home after quite a lot of tears, feeling wrung out and done. DC hasn’t been growing as well as they had hoped, so the hospital are insistent that we get induced later this week. They’ve set a date and a time, and it’s not quite my worst fear, but it’s damn well up there. DH can only be there for part of it not all of it; we can’t have a private room even if we pay extra (something we’d been told should be possible); I can’t go home from when it starts until after baby is here and all checks have come back clear (usually you can go home overnight if it’s an elective induction, but ours would count as against medical advice if we did that). They even rushed me in for a covid test and told me to self isolate until I go back for the induction.
It’s what’s going to be best for DC, so it’s what we have to do, but I’m so scared and I feel like I’m failing DC already with this. And now we need to figure out what we’re going to say to family.
I don’t want to tell anyone - my instinct is to just say DC is smaller than expected but to not give more details; if they’re all unable to listen to our wishes to not message when everything is going 100% right, how much worse will they be when something is happening? Indictions can take 3-4 days - we don’t need both sides messaging either of us while that’s happening.
DH thinks we should tell them when we’re scheduled to be booked in, tell them not to message us and that we’ll update them as/when things progress.
My worry is that if they know, JNMom might turn up anyway. She’s for sure going to keep pushing for video and phone calls and is just going to make me more anxious and is going to be a pain in both of our asses, even if it’s just with a constant string of ‘thinking of you’ messages. JNMIL probably won’t be as bad, but with her last round of messages about just listening to the doctors, I don’t want a string of it told you so’s or more unwanted advise.
The thing is, I also don’t want to cut off DH from emotional support if he needs or wants it from his family. I’m leaning on him so much right now with how worried I am, I recognise he might need or want to do the same with his family. He’s such an open guy, he does t like keeping secrets, and I don’t want to make him uncomfortable or feel isolated.
I don’t know what to do. Would it be bad to allow him to tell just his parents? I could probably cope with them being a bit overbearing, but then if my JNMom ever found out they knew and she didn’t, it wouldn’t be something she would be able to forgive/forget.
I honestly don’t think I can deal with her right now. She’s been unbearable these last few weeks, whether she’s got her own way (pushing to visit a week before our due date - we gave in) or isn’t (pushing to visit on our due date; I shut that down), whether we’re low contact (only DH responding a limited amount) or No contact (it’s only been a bit over a week, but I’ve stopped responding altogether).
Has anyone been in a similar situation? I’d really appreciate any advice. DH and I plan to talk things over more and decide what we’re gonna do later today when he’s finished work, but we’ve only got so long before they all start messaging to see how the appointment went. Just wishing they would all calm down and stop pushing so much.
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2020.10.20 04:30 milab7 Diamonds Mammals of Zod: American Buddhist Gospel Music

DIAMONDS continues Gary Heidt’s scheme to render all 100 of Guan Yin’s 500-year old divinitory poems into American Buddhist Gospel music than began on 2015’s HEARTS. This set of 100 quatrains (4-line poems) are used in Buddhist temples for fortune-telling (and fundraising— typically devotees make a small donation to obtain a scroll with one of the poems.) Guan Yin, accordingly credited as a lyricist on the albums, is a Mahabodhisattva, or a Great Enlightened Being, one who chooses to remain in the world of delusions in order to help suffering people. She is also known as Avalokitesvara in Sanskrit, and Kwannon or Canon in Japan (the optics company is named after her.)
The songs on DIAMONDS are all in the Guajira Deer Park (GDP) style, which is a rhythm which originated in Deer Park, Texas in the 1980’s. Very few drummers have been able to master the style, but Winston-Salem’s John Adamian, formerly of Sugar Smack, who has learned West African rhythms, was able to master it easily. Tom Woods of Greensboro has also mastered and extended the style.
Scott Wilcox, a founder of Mammals of Zod, co-produced, plays guitar and bass and sings on this record. He is also a partner and Chief Innovation Officer for SXSW, the Austin culture festival, and a co-founder and director of SXSW Eco.
Vocalist Lipbone Redding, who performed with the Mammals of Zod throughout the 90’s, lends his beautiful stylings to “Radio Free Crete,” which adapts Quatrain 19 to a narrative about two Allied soldiers left behind after the evacuation of Crete in WWII.
Raymond Seraphim Porter lives in Beijing now but was able to contribute lyrics to “Thanks,” which is sung by Cassandra Victoria Chopourian, a Greensboro resident who starred in the Greensboro Drama Center’s productions “Starbright” and “Boxes.” She is also the cofounder of the Van Reipen Collective which created “Tender Buttons” in 2015 in New York City and presented a cycle of songs, “Unfinished Bird,” which premiered at the Ruby Slipper Fringe Festival in 2016.
Laurent Estoppey also graces 4 tracks with his saxophone. Estoppey, a founding member of Greensboro’s COLLAPSS performance art group, performs in Switzerland, many European countries, but also in Canada, USA, Argentina, Guatemala and South Africa with groups such as the Orchestre de la Suisse Romande Orchestra, Lausanne Chamber Orchestra, Basel Symphony, UBS Verbier Festival Orchestra, Timisoara, Orchestra of the State of Lithuania, Lausanne Sinfonietta, NEC - Chaux-de- Fonds-Contrechamps Geneva, and Staatskapelle Weimar.
Gary Heidt, who composed, arranged, played guitar, bass, percussion, handmade electronics and clarinet, and wrote lyrics for much of the album, is the librettist of Evan Hause’s Defenestration Trilogy, cofounder of Fist of Kindness, a published poet, visual artist with solo shows in New York and North Carolina, a theater creator with many productions in New York, Houston and Germany, a DJ with WKCR (New York), WUAG, WQFS (Greensboro) and WZOO (Asheboro), a canonized saint of the Church of the SubGenius and the Blue Harmonic Elder of the Perceiver of Sound League.
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2020.10.20 00:42 swigganicks Revamping the Academy Roster

This past season I've become way more interested in the academy scene as I believe that getting the jump on these players is what will allow NA to be competitive and so we should treat our academy team with priority and not leave them as an afterthought. With that said, here are my thoughts on the current roster and potential replacements heading into spring if applicable:
Winston
Dhokla
Evolved
Lost
Treatz
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2020.10.19 11:50 Alphonse123 Lonely and Romantically hopeless: how should I handle it as a Christian?

So, let me tell you a story.
In High School, during Senior Year, I met this wonderful young woman who immediately became my best friend. Her name is Sophie. She was a good story-teller, a comedian, and the only girl to ever give me the light of day. I never felt the way I did about her with any other girl in school, so I decided to ask her out on a date- and before I could utter my proposal, she introduces me to her boyfriend, the only person I've even met who made me feel like a giant. Short, scrawny, quiet, unassuming kid. I was broken by this; here's the girl I fancy, already in a relationship with a guy who made me feel confident about my own appearance. I did the only right thing: I shook the guy's hand, and I went on my way. I continued to be Sophie's friend until I left for college, and even then, we chatted on the phone.
Well, a let's happened since then. She got pregnant, was forced to give the kid up for adoption, was betrayed by some close friends, and generally having a sucky year- and here I am, still having feelings for her- until today.
I realized that the way she affected me, the thoughts in my mind, the visions in my night-dreams- these were not the musings of a Godly man. In maintaining a friendship with her, I wasn't just being a friend, I was pining after her, waiting for an opening, unwillingly to face reality and let her go.
Well, today I did just that- I let go.
I'm still a tad hurt by my decision, but I feel like it was for the best. I couldn't help but feel like God was tugging on my spirit and telling me 'She's not the one; let her go.'
I still think she's making poor decisions, staying with the kid who got her pregnant and couldn't provide for her on his own, but frankly, I don't know how much longer they can hold up, being crazy teens (I recently turned 20, so I can call them crazy teen XD). However, I am saddened, because in spite of my pining and, yes, even lust, I often found myself sharing with this girl, who was agnostic, the Gospel of Christ, and comforting her in troubled times with the words of wisdom found within the Gospel. Not only this, but she was genuinely a good friend.
She was the only girl who ever made me feel like I could find love, like someone else could love me- now I don't know. I feel like there's no one in this World for me- that I am never to find a partner, and that my line will end with me.
So, if that be the Lord's will for me, so be it- but how do I handle this empty feeling in the meantime, while it's freag on my heart?
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2020.10.16 01:04 MN_girl80 Sharing the gospel with affair partner

About a month ago I found out my husband of 20 years was having an online emotional affair with a Ukrainian woman that went on for about 2 months. There was nothing sexual from what he has told me, but he said he did have real feelings for her and said they told each other that they loved each other. The affair has since ended and we have been meeting with our Bishop and a counselor on a regular basis and things have gotten a lot better in our relationship so far. My husband has told me that he realizes he really didn't have the feelings he thought he did for this woman it was more that he was filling a void he felt in our marriage and dealing with the stress of what was going on in our lives. But since the affair has ended he still worries about this woman some because of the position she is in (making money by talking to men online, kind of like a dating site in the Ukraine), but he is especially worried about her little girl and her going into the same things her mom is doing as she grows up. My husband does a have big heart when it comes to those he feels like need the Gospel in their lives (he actually helped with my conversion and baptism) and he has been emailing this woman trying more to befriend her with the hopes he can lead her to the Gospel and a better life. I have known about this and agreed to the communication in the beginning which has been going on for about a week or so. So far he has shared all their emails with me, but I am still dealing with trusting him again and I am very anxious about this situation. I don't want to dash his hopes or get in the way of someone receiving the Gospel given my own experience as a convert, but I am still somewhat scared for my marriage. We told our counselor (who is also LDS) about the situation and he basically told my husband "you are walking in a mine field." I have told my husband I am nervous about the situation and he just asks that I pray about it when all I really want is for it to just go away. Any advice from a different perspective would be so helpful to me!
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2020.10.14 22:32 BENcreative Episode Index

As Of: October 8, 2020

crtl+F will be your friend here. You can search for Chapters and verse.
**Not sure I will be able to update this post as we go. I posted it earlier but then I needed to make an edit, to which the edit was prevented because of a 4000 character limit error. I don't really want to make a new post every time we complete a chunk of Bible. I will look into this, hopefully.

INDEX:
1. Introductory background, historical references, context, theme and structure notes.
8 Episodes (0001 – 0008) 1 hour 16 minutes run time

2. Genealogy of Jesus Matthew 1:1-17
8 episodes (0009 – 0016) 1 Hour 21 minutes run time

3. The Birth Of Jesus: Virgin Birth Theology; Mary & Joseph; Connecting to the Old Testament; & Rounding out the Genealogy Context Matthew 1:18 – 25
9 Episodes (0017 – 0025) 1 hour 23 minutes run time

4. Into Chapter 2: Historical Context for Herod; The Significance of the Magi; Nazareth - Nazarene Factual & Textual Conflicts with the Text & A Reason To Hope Matthew 2
12 Episodes (0026 – 0037) 2 Hours run time

5. Baptism PART I: John The Baptist & The Baptism of Jesus; Political & Historical Context Around the Pharisees & Sadducees Matthew 3
6 Episodes (0038 – 0043) 1 hour 10 minutes run time

6. Baptism PART II: The Theology Around Baptizing Jesus & Baptism in General Matthew 3
7 Episodes (0044 – 0050) 1 Hour 25 minutes run time

7. Jesus’s Tempting in the Desert PART I: Theological Background Matthew 4:1 – 11
4 Episodes (0051 – 0054) 35 minutes run time

8. Jesus’s Tempting in the Desert PART II: The Duel Begins Matthew 4:1-11
7 episodes (0055 – 0061) 1 Hour 25 minutes run time

9. Jesus’s Tempting in the Desert PART III: Considering What to Make of this Story Matthew 4:1-11
4 Episodes (0062 – 0065) 45 minutes run time

10. Geographical Context & Significance
4 Episodes (0066 – 0069) 42 minutes

11. “Fishers of Men” Calling the First Apostles Matthew 4:12-22
7 Episodes (0070 – 0076) 1 hour 20 minutes

12. Breaking Down the Beatitudes Matthew 5:1-12
18 Episodes (0077 – 0099) Estimated 3 hours

13. Background on The Old Testament Law
9 Episodes (0100 -0109) 1 hour 46 minutes

14. “You Have Hear It Said” Matthew 5:21-48
15 Episodes (0110 – 0124) approximately 2 hours 45 minutes

15. Beyond Performative Religious Practices (Almsgiving, etc) Matthew 6:1-16
14 Episodes (0125 – 0138) Approximately 3 Hours

16. Jesus Teaches Further on What a Kingdom Citizen Might Do and Feel Matthew 6:19 - 34 5 Episodes (0139 -0143) Approximately 1 hour.

17. Chapter 7, The Last Passage from the Sermon on the Mount Matthew 7:1-24
13 Episodes (0144 – 0156) Approximately 2 hours 20 minutes

18. Miracles, Jesus discloses the nature of being a follower; more miracles. Matthew Chapter 8:1-27 16 Episodes (0156 – 0171) Approximately 3 hours, 20 minutes.

19. Deep Water questions concerning demons, and the rejection of Jesus Matthew 8:28-34
4 Episodes (0172 – 0175) Approximately 45 minutes

20. Rev. Whitman teaches his congregation on The Parable of the Wheat and the Tares Matthew 13:24-30
Published the week of June 29th, broken into 5 episode chunks, and then a sixth episode as the full sermon. 45 Minutes.

21. The importance of forgiveness and Jesus’s authority to forgive Matthew Chapter 9:1-8
7 Episodes (0176 – 0182) Approximately 1 hour 20 minutes

22. The Call of Matthew 9:9-13
4 Episodes (0183 – 0186) Approximately 51 minutes

23. Question About Fasting Matthew 9:14 -17
2 Episodes (0187-0188) Approximately 20 Minutes

24. Matt teaches on the chronology and editorial choices that were made by Matthew 2 Episodes (0189 – 0190) Approximately 19 minutes

25. Jesus resurrects a Ruler’s daughter, and heals others Matthew 9:18-34 9 Episodes (0191 – 0199) Approximately 1 hour 43 minutes

26. Deep dive into the Pharisee’s response to Jesus’s Miracles 9:32-34 4 Episodes (0200 – 0203) Approximately 50 1 hour

27. “The harvest is plentiful but the laborer’s are few”. Commentary on Jesus’s observation to his apostles at the end of chapter 9 Matthew 9:35-38 6 Episodes (0204 – 0209) Approximately 1 hour 13 minutes (Including Side-Quest with Aron Utecht)

28. Jesus assigns a mission to his apostles Matthew Chapter 10 (but it’s mostly a discussion focused on 9:35-38) 9 Episodes (0210 – 0218) Approximately 1 hour 45 minutes
Though, in the podcast, the discussion moves into chapter 10:1-4, the series of episodes below focus more on the theme in 9:35-38. the “sheep without a shepherd” phrase. So these episodes act more of a bridge between the end of chapter 9, and when Jesus gives his commission speech in 10:5

29. Missional Discourse, Part I Matthew 10:5-15 4 Episodes (0219 – 0222) Approximately 45 minutes

30. Missional Discourse, Part II Matthew 10:16-22 7 Episodes (0223 – 0230) Approximately 1 hour 30 minutes

31. BIBLE HOUR SIDE QUEST Matt Whitman teaches his congregation on the old parts of the Old Testament A 49 minute sermon broken into 5 parts. The complete talk is uploaded as a sixth episode for the week.

32. Resuming the Missional Discourse, Part II Matthew 10:23-42 7 Episodes (0231 – 0238) Approximately 1 hour 34 minutes

33. SIDE QUEST Continuation of a conversation with Aron Utecht about the sinner’s prayer 1 Episode ( 0239 ) 13 minutes


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Episode Details

1. Introductory background, historical references, context, theme and structure notes. 8 Episodes (0001 – 0008) 1 hour 16 minutes run time
0001 - Two Things That Are True About the Bible
0002 - Who Was Matthew?
Matthew 9:9-13 is referenced in this conversation.
0003 - Did Matthew Actually Write Matthew?
0004 - When Was Matthew Written, and Why Would That Even Matter?
0005 - Was Matthew the First Gospel?
0006 - Themes and Structure of Matthew
0007 - What's the Historical Context of Matthew
0008 - What is the Theological Context of Matthew

2. Genealogy of Jesus Matthew 1:1-17 8 episodes (0009 – 0016) 1 Hour 21 minutes run time
0009 - Jesus the Messiah, the Son of David, the Son of Abraham
0010 - Jesus Has the Right Bloodlines to Be King
0011 - Why Did Matthew Arrange His Genealogy of Jesus Around the Number 14?
0012 - Matthew's Genealogy of Jesus vs. Luke's
0013 - Jesus is the Completion of the Old Testament Story Arc
0014 - The Erotic, Enterprising, and Indelible Women of Jesus' Genealogy
0015 - Does the Curse of Jeconiah Wreck Jesus' Claim to the Throne of David?
0016 - What's the Point of Jesus' Genealogy in Matthew?

3. The Birth Of Jesus: Virgin Birth Theology; Mary & Joseph; Connecting to the Old Testament; & Rounding out the Genealogy Context Matthew 1:18 – 25 9 Episodes (0017 – 0025) 1 hour 23 minutes run time
0017 - Born of a Virgin
0018 - What Exactly Does the Bible Mean by "Virgin?"
0019 - Why Does It Matter If She Was a Virgin?
0020 - Joseph is Soooooo Much Cooler Than We Think
0021 - Why Does Luke Talk About Mary More Than Matthew Does?
0022 - Isaiah, Ahaz, and the name Immanuel in the Old Testament
0023 - God NOT With Us
0024 - Adoption Counts for Kingmakers and for God
0025 - Closing the Book on Chapter One

4. Into Chapter 2: Historical Context for Herod; The Significance of the Magi; Nazareth - Nazarene Factual & Textual Conflicts with the Text & A Reason To Hope Matthew 2 12 Episodes (0026 – 0037) 2 Hours run time
0026 - Who Was Herod the Great?
0027 – More on Herod the Great
0028 - Christian Space Wizards
0029 - Why Was God Using Astrology to Point to Jesus?
0030 - Immorton Joe Benefits From a Bad Situation
0031 - Why's the Whole Herod/Magi Thing In the Bible?
0032 - Herod's a Monster, Joseph's a Saint, and Jesus is the New and Awesomer Moses
0033 - Herod Murdered Babies? Why Didn't Somebody Write That Down?
0034 - Herod Dies; Things Get Even Weirder
0035 - Jesus: Homecoming
0036 - Clown Kings vs. the Promise of Something Real
0037 - Maybe We Should Allow Ourselves to Hope

5. Baptism PART I: John The Baptist & The Baptism of Jesus; Political & Historical Context Around the Pharisees & Sadducees Matthew 3 6 Episodes (0038 – 0043) 1 hour 10 minutes run time
0038 - Jesus' Baptism Isn't About Baptism
0039 - Who Was John the Baptist?
0040 - John Thinks It's Time to Put the Chains On the Tires
0041 - Let's Talk About That Voice in the Wilderness
0042 - Who Were the Pharisees and Sadducees?
0043 - Are There Any Circumstances Under Which It's Okay to Call People a Brood of Vipers?

6. Baptism PART II: The Theology Around Baptizing Jesus & Baptism in General Matthew 3 7 Episodes (0044 – 0050) 1 Hour 25 minutes run time
0044 - John the Baptist's Poetic Verbal Drubbing (With Tuvia Pollack)
0045 - You Can't Have the Tiger Without the Claws
0046 - What's the Difference Between John's Baptism and Jesus' Version?
0047 - Jesus and the Chosen One Motif
0048 - Why Are We Cleaning a Clean Thing?
0049 - John and Jesus Debate Who Should Baptize Who
0050 - I Think The First Three Chapter's Worth of Events in Matthew Would Have Wrecked a lot of Seemingly Immovable Paradigms

7. Jesus’s Tempting in the Desert PART I: Theological Background Matthew 4:1 – 11 4 Episodes (0051 – 0054) 35 minutes run time
0051 – Tempting
0052 - The Judean Desert Is a Hardcore Metaphor
0053 - Was the Temptation A Garbage Strategy?
0054 - Is Satan Real?

8. Jesus’s Tempting in the Desert PART II: The Duel Begins Matthew 4:1-11 7 episodes (0055 – 0061) 1 Hour 25 minutes run time
0055 - The Duel Begins
0056 - What do you mean, man can't live on bread alone?
0057 - The Duel Continues With Manipulative, Needy Weaseling
0058 - Lucifer Lord of Darkness Is Better at Bible Drills Than Your Awana Kid
0059 - How Would Matthew Have Got The Details of What Happened In the Desert When Only Jesus and the Devil Were There?
0060 - I am not trying to rob you! I'm trying to help you. So stop with the testing.
0061 - Sweet, Hot, Dirty Delectable Power

9. Jesus’s Tempting in the Desert PART III: Considering What to Make of this Story Matthew 4:1-11 4 Episodes (0062 – 0065) 45 minutes run time
0062 - Why Does Jesus Keep Quoting From Deuteronomy When Dueling the Devil in the Wilderness?
0063 - Jesus' Temptation is a Road Map For Navigating Temptation
0064 - Was it Possible For Jesus to Fail the Temptation?
0065 - Why Is the Temptation Account in the Bible?

10. Geographical Context & Significance 4 Episodes (0066 – 0069) 42 minutes
0066 - Jesus Picks His Base of Operations, And It's Weird
0067 - What's the Deal With Capernaum?
0068 - Jesus Lived Where He Lived Because of Theology
0069 - Jesus' Cousin Got Arrested For Saying Words, What's Jesus Going to Do?

11. “Fishers of Men” Calling the First Apostles Matthew 4:12-22 6 Episodes (0070 – 0076) 1 hour 10 minutes
0070 - When You Say "Fisher of Men," Exactly What Kind of Fishing Are You Picturing?
0071 - What Would It Take For You to Quit Your Life and Follow a Cryptic Homeless Guy You Just Met?
0072 - Why Do Matthew and Luke Differ On the Story of Peter's Conversion?
0073 - "Fishers of Men" Is Baked Into Christianity From the Beginning
0074 - What's the Actual Message Jesus Was Going to Send Peter and the Guys Out With?
0075 - Jesus Shows the New Guys What the Fishing Thing Looks Like
0076 - Is Jesus Selling Time Shares?

12. Breaking Down the Beatitudes Matthew 5:1-12 18 Episodes (0077 – 0099) Estimated 3 hours
0077 - Changing Currency
0078 - Jesus' Kingdom Manifesto
0079 - This is the Kingdom Everybody Wants
0080 - Everyone Protects Their Crotch When Vince Carter Dunks On Them, And Nobody Thinks It Looks Cool
0081 - My Parents Didn't Get Me the Thing I Wanted and I'm Still Sort of Grouchy About It
0082 - My Son Is Playing the 90's X-Men Arcade Game Using Someone Else's Quarter
0083 - Sweet Mercy
0084 - Purity of Heart Is to Will One Thing
NOTE: Purity of Heart Is to Will One Thing by Soren Kierkegaard
0085 - Blessed Are the Peacemakers, Because We Like Fighting
0086 - Peacemakers Get Burned Down; It's the Nature of Peacemaking
0087 - What Structure Was Jesus Using In Laying Out the Beatitudes?
0088 - Once You Know to Look for This Literary Structure in the Bible You're Going to See it Everywhere
0089 - It's Like Poetry, It Rhymes
0090 - Are the Beatitudes a Meme?
0091 - What Do the Beatitudes Mean?
0092 - ZAPP NRG DRINK!!!!! (How to Make an Awful Sales Pitch)
0093 - The X-Men Were Hated and Feared by the People They Were Sworn to Protect
0094 - Working the Persecution-Sympathy Game Isn't a Kingdom Value, But Justice Is
0095 - Ain't No Use In Complainin'
0096 - Somebody’s Salty
0097 - Strange Times Prompt Important Thought
0098 - Light is Frustratingly Permeating
0099 - I Still Have No Idea What "Hide It Under a Bushel" Means, But I Do Think Jesus' Light Analogy Makes Sense

13. Background on The Old Testament Law 9 Episodes (0100 -0109) 1 hour 46 minutes
0100 - Light Bible Avalanche
0101 - Hill People: So What Do We Do With the Religion We Already Had?
0102 - The Psyche of the Hill People
0103 - Five Laws From My Childhood Home
0104 - How Does Jesus Fulfill the Old Testament Rules?
0105 - Is It Cocky For God to Be So Obsessed With His Own Glory?
0106 - All the Shocking, Gory, Smelly, Bloody Sacrifices of the Old Testament and How Jesus Fulfills That
0107 - Humans Feel Guilt Because We Just Do, and We Want Atonement Because We Feel Guilt
0108 - BIBLE AVALANCHE - Jesus Fulfills Each Bit of the Sacrificial Law
0109 - It's A Trap!!!

14. “You Have Hear It Said” Matthew 5:21-48 15 Episodes (0110 – 0124) approximately 3 hours
0110 - You Have Heard It Said... But I Tell You
0111 - You Will Be Awarded Zero Points For Not Murdering Anyone, Because Not Murdering Is a Minimal Expectation In This Course
0112 - Moving Beyond Just Not Murdering People (Although Not Murdering People Is a Great Start)
0113 - Captain America's Note to Iron Man at the End of Civil War Made Me Cry & You Should Be Crying Too
0114 - Settling Out of Court
0115 - Adultrying is Hard
0116 - Chiseling Away the Yuck to Find the Surprising Beauty Beneath
0117 - I Will MAKE it Legal!
0118 - The One About Oaths That Starts With the Princess Bride
0119 - Did Matthew and Luke Cheat Off of Mark's Paper?
0120 - Aggressive Cheek Turning
0121 - My Mom Made Me Watch The Butter Cream Gang and I Still Love Her
0122 - Is Loving Your Enemy the Hardest Thing Jesus Says?
0123 - The Kind of Game Where You Play Against the Game
0124 - Dang, Matthew Five, You've Been Intense!

15. Beyond Performative Religious Practices (Almsgiving, etc) Matthew 6:1-16 14 Episodes (0125 – 0138) Approximately 3 hours
0125 - What's the Point of Religious Drills in the Kingdom?
0126 - Everybody's Afraid They're a Fraud Sometimes
0127 - Mike Seaver Loves Babies Just Because It's the Right Thing To Do
0128 - It's Gross When I'm Hypocritical; I'll Try to Do Better
0129 - We're Different When We Talk With Eavesdroppers in Mind
0130 - If God Already Knows What's Going to Happen, Why Pray?
0131 - What is an Oath of Fealty and Why Are We Talking About That Here?
0132 - Vested Bannermen vs. Disinterested Peasants
0133 - What's the Only Part of the Lord's Prayer Where You Pray For Yourself to Do Something?
0134 - No Choking Me, but I Get to Choke You
0135 - Does Jesus Make Me Forgive People For Horrible Things?
0136 - Giant Matthew Reset
0137 - Forgiveness = Subaru All Wheel Drive
0138 - I Totally Fast the Most out of Everybody and Now I'm Going To Tell You About It In Great Detail

16. Jesus Teaches Further on What a Kingdom Citizen Might Do and Feel Matthew 6:19 – 34 4 Episodes (0139 – 143) Approximately 1 hour.
0139 - Two Investment Opportunities
0140 - You Can't Hit It if You Can't See It
0141 - Squish Like Grape
0142 - Have We Seen Enough From Jesus Yet to Think He Could Deliver on All He's Saying?
0143 - What Does It Mean If You Seek First the Kingdom of God and All These Things AREN'T Added Unto You?

17. Chapter 7 The Last Passage from the Sermon on the Mount Matthew 7:1-24 16 Episodes (0144 – 0156) Approximately 2 hours 20 minutes
0144 - Don't Judge: The Dreaded Impenetrable Ping Shield
0145 - Kitties Will Puke On Everything You Love and So Will People
0146 - Why Is Jesus Calling People Dogs and Pigs Right After He Said Don't Judge?
0147 - What Am I Supposed to do With Dogs and Pigs?
0148 - My Dad Wanted Me to Hit His Pitches
0149 - American Gladiators Will Puke on Everything You Love
0150 - Nothing Has Changed: American Gladiators Will STILL Puke On Everything You Love
0151 - How Do You Know If You're a Christian?
0152 - The Threefold Test of Christianness from 1 John
0153 - Only Sith and Jesus Speak in Absolutes?
0154 - Outside the Walls is Default
0155 - IF This is all True, and IF Jesus Can Back it up, Then the Kingdom is the Truest Realest Thing Ever
0156 - What Does Authoritative Credibility Even Sound Like?

18. Miracles, Jesus discloses the nature of being a follower; more miracles. Matthew Chapter 8:1-27 16 Episodes (0156 – 0171) Approximately 3 hours, 20 minutes
0157 - My Wrestling Partner Literally Stunk Badly, and His Stink Got On Me
0158 - If You Have Leprosy, You Can't Come to the Christmas Party
0159 - So Just How Committed is Jesus to These Kingdom Values?
0160 - Jesus Does the Unthinkable
0161 - Walkie Talkies Sort of Transcend Distance
0161 - Walkie Talkies Sort of Transcend Distance
0162 - Right Posture Before the King
0163 - Jesus Says More Provocative Stuff
0164 - Right Posture Before the King > Ancestry
0165 - SHOCKING BIBLE CONTROVERSY! Matthew vs. Luke on the Centurion Story
0166 - Girls Are Gross in 4th Grade and 1st Century Galilee, but Jesus Thinks They're Not Gross
0167 - Bands of Misfits Make the Best Super Hero Teams
0168 – Disclosure
0169 - Back to the Singleness of Heart Thing
0170 - Sometimes the Sea of Galilee Tries to Murder People
0171 - Whoa, What Exactly Are We Dealing With Here?

19. Deep Water questions concerning demons, and the rejection of Jesus Matthew 8:28-34 4 Episodes (0172 – 0175) Approximately 45 Minutes
0172 - Demon Honor Students Nail Tough Question
0173 - Demons Are Hard to Compute
0174 - Remember When Biff Smashed Into That Manure Truck?
0175 - Why Didn't They Wanna Hang Out With Jesus?

20. Matt Whitman teaches his congregation on The Parable of the Wheat and the Tares Matthew 13:24-30 Published the week of June 29th, broken into 5 episode chunks, and then a sixth episode as the full sermon. 45 Minutes.
Monday Jun 28, 2020 – The Human Impulse to Sort
Tuesday, Jun 29 2020 – A Brief History of Tares
Wednesday, Jun 30 2020 – Jesus Explains (Matthew 13:24-30)
Thursday July 1, 2020 – I don’t Reckon So (Matthew 13:24-30)
Friday July 2, 2020 – Thankfully I’m Not In Charge of Sorting Out the Fate of Everyone’s Soul (Matthew 13:24-30)
(Full Length sermon uploaded on July 5, 2020)

21. The importance of forgiveness and Jesus’s authority to forgive Matthew Chapter 9:1-8 7 Episodes (0176 – 0182) Approximately 1 hour 45 minutes
0176 - There's a Homework Assignment at the End of This One
0177 - How Are You Going to Use Your Time Travel Tokens?
0178 - There's Nothing Jesus Can Say to Make Them Happy
0179 - Jesus Stakes His Claim as Owner of Forgiveness
0180 - What If Jesus Couldn't Heal the Guy After He Said He Could?
0181 - The Sword of Damocles
0182 - Forgiveness Is the Way (Seriously, This Is a Plan for How to Fix Things)

22. The Call of Matthew 9:9-13 Four Episodes (0183 – 0186) Approximately 51 minutes
0183 - Matthew (the one from the Bible, not me) Was the Repugnant Cultural Other
0184 - Why Did Matthew Skip the Big Dramatic Story?
0185 - Does Jesus Even Care About His Reputation?
0186 - There's Always Somebody Dangling From the Bottom Rung (Except in the Kingdom)

23. Question About Fasting Matthew 9:14 -17 2 Episodes ( 0187 – 0188) Approximately 20 Minutes
0187 - Sometimes I Wake Up and Realize My Categories Are Wrecked
0188 - Booze Exploded in My Truck One Time and That's Like the Bible (Trust Me, It'll Make Sense)

24. Matt teaches on the chronology and editorial choices that were made by Matthew 2 Episodes (0189 – 0190) Approximately 19 minutes
0189 - Why Do People Who Write Stories Mess With the Order of Things?
0190 - What is Matthew Doing With the Order of Events in His Story?

25. Jesus resurrects a Ruler’s daughter, and heals others Matthew 9:18-34 9 Episodes (0191 – 0199) Approximately 1 hour 43 minutes
0191 - I'm So So So Sorry for Killing That Hamster
0192 - This Guy Embraced the Evidence of His Eyes and Ears and Did Something Bold
0193 - What's Wrong With Bleeding for 12 Years?
0194 - When Push Comes to Shove You Don't Grab the Fashionable Rope, You Grab the One You Think Will Work
0195 - What If You Could Give Someone Back Their Dead Kid Alive and Well?
0196 - The Least Surprising Thing In the Bible Is That People Saw Jesus Bring a Kid Back to Life and Then They Told a Bunch of People About That
0197 - Officer Niceguy Handles Duress Well
0198 - Why Is Jesus Being So Dang Sneaky
0199 - The Blind Guys Could See What The Deal Was

26. Deep dive into the Pharisee’s response to Jesus’s Miracles 9:32-34 4 Episodes (0200 – 0203) Approximately 50 1 hour
0200 - Looking at the Exact Same Data and Coming to Different Conclusions
0201 - Justice, Love, and the Ref Are All Blind
0202 - The Idea of Blind and Deaf in the Bible Is Waaaay More Complex Than I Thought
0203 - Maybe Pirates or Possibly Satan?

27. “The harvest is plentiful but the laborer’s are few”. Commentary on Jesus’s observation to his apostles at the end of chapter 9 Matthew 9:35-38 6 Episodes (0204 – 0209) Approximately 1 hour 13 minutes (Including Side-Quest with Aron Utecht)
0204 - Worn and Weary Like Sheep Without a Shepherd
----- Intellectual Side Quest with Aron Utecht---
0205 - Do We Actually Know What the Original Audience Thought About Stuff? (Aron Utecht guest appearance)
0206 - Jesus and the "Sinners' Prayer"
--- End of Side Quest---
0207 - Oh My GAWWWWWWWWWWWWSH!!! Somebody Else Should Do Something!!!
0208 - Hey, Not-Christian Friends, Let's Talk About the Fact That Jesus Just Told His Followers to Go Tell You About Him
0209 - The Coolest Kid in 8th Grade Was the One Who Included Everybody

28. Jesus assigns a mission to his apostles Matthew Chapter 10 (but it’s mostly a discussion focused on 9:35-38) 9 Episodes (0210 – 0218) Approximately 1 hour 45 minutes
Though, in the podcast, the discussion moves into chapter 10:1-4, the series of episodes below focus more on the theme in 9:35-38. the “sheep without a shepherd” phrase. So these episodes act more of a bridge between the end of chapter 9, and when Jesus gives his commission speech in 10:5.
0210 - The Kids Are About to Take a Big Step Forward
0211 - Jesus' Band of Uninspiring Misfits That Sometimes Asks Jesus to Burn People to Death
0212 - What Did Jesus' Screwy Disciple Draft Mean to the Original Audience?
0213 - Hey Mike, Have You Ever Had a Runza?
0214 - Why is Jesus, Who Loves Everybody, Telling His Disciples to Ignore Everyone But Jews?
0215 - What's Jesus' Campaign Buzzword?
Related Old Testament: ISAIAH 53; Jeremiah 50
0216 - I Think This Sheep Thing Is Intentional and Effective
0217 - Other Than Going to School Without Pants, Being on Stage Without a Script Is Everyone's Worst Nightmare
0218 - Jesus' Announcement of His Kingdom Is Way Nicer Than Thanos's

29. Missional Discourse, Part I Matthew 10:5-15 4 Episodes (0219 – 0222) Approximately 45 minutes
0219 - It's Dangerous to Go Alone. Take This.
0220 - Is This One of Those Things Where The King's Arrival Is Obvious Like at Winterfell, Or Is It Missable Like in Henry V?
0221 - It's Reasonable for Samuel L. Jackson and Jesus of Nazareth to Expect to be Recognized
0222 - Literally Hitler and Literally Sodom and Gomorrah (Adult Subject Matter Warning For Kids)

30. Missional Discourse, Part II Matthew 10:16-22 7 Episodes (0223 – 0230) Approximately 1 hour 30 minutes
0223 - Put on Your Special Gaming Trousers, Because We're Playing the Animal Association Game and You're Going to Dominate!
0224 - Bears Are Very Dangerous, Also You Totally Want to Be Where the Bears Are
0225 - Taming of the Shrewd
0226 - How Is Jesus Structuring His Commissioning Speech in Matthew 10?
0227 - Hey Gang, You're Getting Flogged; Also, It's Worth It.
0229 - What Does "Son of Man" Mean?
0230 - Three-Part Dad Tennis Pep Talk

31. BIBLE HOUR SIDE QUEST Matt Whitman teaches his congregation on the old parts of the Old Testament A 49 minute sermon broken into 5 parts. The complete talk is uploaded as a sixth episode for the week.
September 20 – The Very Old Part of the Old Testament and Abraham (pt 1)
September 21 – The Very Old Part of the Old Testament and Abraham (pt 2)
September 22 – The Very Old Part of the Old Testament and Abraham (pt 3)
September 23 – The Very Old Part of the Old Testament and Abraham (pt 4)
September 24 – The Very Old Part of the Old Testament and Abraham (pt 5)
September 25 – The Very Old Part of the Old Testament and Abraham (complete)
SIDE QUEST COMPLETED!

32. Resuming the Missional Discourse, Part II Matthew 10:23-42 7 Episodes (0231 – 0238) Approximately 1 hour 34 minutes
0231 - What the Heck Is Going on With Matthew 10:23?
“I say to you, you will not have gone through all the towns of Israel, before the Son of man comes.” RSV 2nd Catholic Edition
0232 - Hawkeye and Jesus Are Excellent at Customized Encouragement Speeches
0234 - Today I Feel Exhausted by Division and Then The Passage We're Covering Is About Division
0235 - In Order to Hear This Program, You Must First Program Your Hearing
0236 - Here the Bannermen Go Again on Their Own
0237 - Before This Episode is Over, We're Going to Figure Out Who Gets What Present
0238 - After Action Report

33. SIDE QUEST Continuation of a conversation with Aron Utecht about the sinner’s prayer. 1 Episode ( 0239 ) 13 minutes
0239 - Is the Lord's Prayer the Sinner's Prayer?
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2020.10.11 18:13 zazild92 Challenger Spotlight: Cara Maria, Challenge Legend fallen from grace.

Cara Maria Sorbello. For a time in this fandom you could not say one bad thing about her without her toxic Standom she created attacking you for not having a higher then thou look on their iCoN. Sigh. Like my last post with Laurel we are gonna take a look back at Cara and what the hell happened.
Cara Maria is one of the biggest names on the Challenge. We saw this meek woodland-like nymph who had no confidence blossom into this warrior challenger with confidence to boot. Minus the swimming part. And for a time, seeing Cara’s transition into a beast competitor was fantastic to see. But eventually I feel her confidence breed into arrogance and by her last season, she was the Challenge’s incarnation of Pennywise.
Cara Maria got her start as the first boot of “Fresh Meat 2”. And came back for her real debut season the iconic “Cuttthroat”. Cara found romance with vet Abe, rivals in Laurel and Sarah. And made it to the final being one of 3 to finish after Abe and Sarah DQ’d. Cara made her second final with Laurel on “Rivals” where she got second place and a new friend in her former rival Laurel.
Cara then had two mediocre seasons. “Exes” she was off’d midway and made little impact. And “Seasons 2” she was a replacement team, and was on team with living challenge curse Easy. Though a highlight of that season was Cara and Camilla fighting over who had to go into elimination with him.
Cara’s comeback season was “Rivals 2” where she was a replacement for one season wonder Heather Cooke partner. This was when Cara started making strides. You could see she was putting work in to make herself stronger. And after a rough start, her and Cooke hit their stride and ended up in second.
Cara’s breakthrough season was “Free Agents” though. She went into 4 eliminations, and won three of them. Broke her damn hand in one of them, and was second to last out. This season showed Cara is a competitor, and was making a name for herself. Personally at the time, I was gutted to see her leave like that.
After the loss of FA, I felt Cara’s popularity really started to spike. I think she had such a good story on FA that it made a lot of people root for her. And when she came back for “Bloodlines”, she got her first win with her cousin. But at a price. Once again she was put through the ringer when they brought in Abe after she kinda-sorta hooked up with low key hottie Tom. It was cringey. It was awkward. But overall I think everyone was happy to see her get her first one on a fan level.
After her first win, she came back for a cameo on “Invasion”. And was part of a love-triangle with future rival (again!) Laurel. Cara was off’d after 4 episodes of her on the show, and Nicole went running to Laurel as a second choice.
Now when Cara went onto Dirty30 she was a bonafide vet. I felt she had confidence, and could back it up with her game. She stayed on top mostly the whole season until the coup, and won her way back into the house. And once again at the time, I think we all wish she beat Camilla in the final.
Cara then had a new love interest on “Vendettas” Mr Pirate himself Kyle. And for me these two really like each other but Kyle ghosted Cara and I felt it really bothered Cara. For me after Kyle dogged her and she came back for “Final Reckoning” their seemed to be a shift with her.
Cara was partnered with Marie on FR and they are comedy gold. Cara knew she wasn’t winning but Marie was just hilarious and pissed Cara off all season. Them getting hammered during the final was ICONIC. And one of the many reasons FR is a comedic parody of the Challenge.
But Cara was also involved in a shit ton of drama. Between Amanda and Ashley. The horse comment, and thirsty after Paulie. Cara seemed to be at the center of a lot of drama. And the thing was whenever she was confronted by someone she went into a shell and went silent. And this is what really started to piss me off with her. She just could never back anything up ever.
By the off season of FR. Cara went through a cringe worthy storyline in real life with Paulie. Paulie dogged her and she tried to garner sympathy. But she then went back to him, and this is when I start seeing fan reception of Cara really tanking. Her Standom didn’t seem to have as much bark, and it was making this sub a better place.
Cara then went on both WOTW with Paulie. And we saw both of them clowning to where I call them Pennywise and Bozo. Cara seemed to develop a mean for streak, and Da’Vonne called her out for this on her ChallengeMania. I’m sorry but Queen Day is the word of the Challenge Gospel. IMO.
By War 2. We saw Pennywise form a cult and tank her own team by the end. Cara became a full fledge villain this season and I will say on rewatch. She was a GOOD villain to hate. And seeing her cry at the end was so satisfying.
Oh Cara Maria. I used to think you were the bee’s knees but at some point you just thought you were above it and turned into Pennywise. I do think the cult like Standom she created made it so she thought she could say anything and no one would do anything cause her crazy stans would bounce on them.
But since her tank in reception. They’ve gone the way of the dinosaurs. When it comes to if Cara comes back. A week ago I would said in some time yes. But now after the whole her calling a monkey Tyrie. Eeekk I think Pennywise Cara might be our last memory of Cara 😂
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2020.10.07 17:31 Mark-Leyner Susan Strehle's "Fiction in the Quantum Universe" (1992) and William Gaddis - Part 3

Part 1
Part 2
Clinging to the Material World
Strehle argues that at first, JR appears static because most characters do not undergo transformations and they are fixated on cultivating “the stasis of objects”. They find change or the suggestion of change repulsive and flee – although of course they do change: clothes, jobs, partners and they age, get sick, experience accidents, and die. The novel’s starting point is the word, money. It nearly ends with, “. . . why can’t people just shut up and do what they’re paid for!”. In between, most of the novel’s schemes are concerned with stealing, earning, investing, controlling, winning, spending, borrowing, and attempting to collect as much money as possible. The novel’s titular character, JR, for instance, creates a business empire and the attendant wealth, but he never bothers to buy new sneakers or even replace his filthy handkerchief.
Most of the other characters do exchange money for things – most often, mechanical things. They are meant to be status symbols but often, they work poorly or destructively, i.e. – the mechanical letter opener that tears mail to pieces rather than simply effortlessly opening it. In fact, most of the collective impulses are thwarted by destruction, objects are lost, broken, or rendered worthless. Thus, Gaddis repudiates the hoarding impulse of his characters who seek to define meaning through collections of objects. Although many characters display thrift and repair or protect various objects, Strehle argues that their actions are not redemptive and are driven by a sense of responsibility to the material world – a veneration for things that leads to the decadent materialism derided throughout the text. Ultimately, she argues that these redemptive actions are often undone, things fall apart, and that this demonstrates the folly expending energy to serve matter, rather than to create value. The argument is summed up in the following passage,
“Gaddis’s characters end by imitating the things they value, as if identity were material. Not only do they cultivate a sense of self in and through their clothes, rings, cars, and other goods, but they also aspire to the “thingly” status of these goods. In a seedy automat, J R and the young Hyde admire a woman who performs with mechanical efficiency (113); Donny DiCephalis wraps himself in cords and plugs into outlets throughout the novel (56). A shift from himness to itness occupies John Cates, who, like Pynchon’s lady V., undergoes a series of bodily transplants. His companion Zona Selk considers having Cates declared nonexistent. “He’s nobody, he’s a lot of old parts stuck together he doesn’t even exist he started losing things eighty years ago [. . .] now look at him, he’s listening through somebody else’s inner ears those corneal transplants God knows whose eyes he’s looking through, windup toy with a tin heart” (708). The pursuit of mechanical thinghood is really a pursuit of immortality; while Cates implants a “tin heart”, other characters emulate automata in a futile effort to evade time: their repetitions of words, phrases, conversations, gestures, and actions suggest the automatic responses of atemporal machines. Like Pynchon, Gaddis examines the impulse to defy death by denying life.”
In another passage, Strehle notes, “Since their materialism leads characters to covet the made and costly, they inevitably discount the natural and free.” One exception is intimate relationships, however, these are also commodified and exchanged rather than passionate and loving. The characters are attempting to cultivate the Protestant ethic – where no thing or action has value unless it makes a profit. The deeper psychological value of this ethic is the exclusion or concealment of the temporal flux, which can only conclude with individual death, a conclusion each character and indeed, the culture is desperate to avoid. Strehle argues that Gaddis identifies the Protestant ethic as a significant source for the decadent materialism that pervades American culture. Time is objectively measured and valued in terms of profit, production, and ultimately – money. Election (as opposed to preterition) is demonstrated by “good” works, i.e. – profitable works in the world and material blessing naturally follows. (Note – Strehle doesn’t explicitly mention this, but since her work was published in 1992, the extreme perversion of this idea manifested by the “prosperity gospel” has metastasized among a nontrivial American population.)
Strehle notes, “If one approaches work as the single definitive sign of election (or source of worth) and then finds only trivial and degrading work to do, the only way to justify one’s existence is, indeed, to “make a million dollars”; this is, in brief, the story of J R, whose compulsion “to find out what I’m suppose to do” leads to his ruthless pursuit of money (661). With Ben Franklin’s worldly suggestions as his subtext (like Gatsby, J R keeps a list of rules for success {647]) and with Horatio Alger as his model, J R reenacts the American rags-to-riches myth. But as J R’s initials suggest, he only emulates his elders, and virtually every character in the novel is, like J R, caught up in some form of the virulent Protestant economy.”
She concludes this section with a meditation on the role of Fathers in the novel:
“On the first page of the novel, Anne Bast recalls a story about ‘Father’s dying wish to have his bust sunk in Vancouver harbor, and his ashes sprinkled on the water there, about James and Thomas out in the rowboat, and both of them hitting at the bust with their oars because it was hollow and wouldn’t go down, and the storm coming up while they were out there, blowing his ashes back into their beards’ (3). Indeed, this hollow figure who cannot be buried, whose remains cling to his sons, might stand for all of Gaddis’s fathers – as, in a grotesque communion near the end of The Recognitions, Wyatt Gwyon eats bread baked with his father’s ashes. Rather than trying to sink their father’s memory, in fact, most characters perpetuate it: J R finds a surrogate father in Cates; Edward Bast in Crawley and Duncan; Reuben in James Bast; Gibbs in Schramm, and so on.”
None of the characters, “. . . interrogates the authority of the past. This veneration for the father and the past expresses, once more, these characters’ longing to escape time and change: all become good “juniors” in Gaddis’s text.”
As a note – ashes blown into beards appears near the climax of the Coen Brother’s, “The Big Lebowski” and consumption of a father’s ashes appears in Todd Phillips’s, “Due Date”. In a more bizarre case, Rolling Stones guitarist Keith Richards claims to have snorted his father’s ashes in some form of “tribute”. My point here is that the richness of both The Recognitions and JR find gags, jokes, ideas from each novel replicated and referenced in later art, and even life. Whether by design or serendipity, it’s hard to say.
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2020.10.06 13:53 Thisthelife Religious conspiracy theory

Jesus and Mary Magdalene might have been married, or so says the Gospel of Philip. Sure, it's the basic plot of The Da Vinci Code (the thriller also wraps in conspiracy shibboleths like Opus Dei and the Knights Templar for good measure) — but the theory finds its basis in writings from the Gnostic Gospels, which were discovered in 1945 and whose authenticity religious experts still dispute. In the Gospel of Philip, Mary Magdalene, who is referred to as Jesus' koinonos, a Greek term for "companion" or "partner," is depicted as being closer to Jesus than any other apostle.
In an exchange between Peter and Mary, he admits to her that "the Saviour loved you above all other women" — a tense moment in the scripture that seems to portray the jealousy that the other apostles might have felt for Mary's relationship with Jesus. The only other evidence used to support the theory is a mention of Jesus kissing Mary often, but some say kissing was the custom and it was typical of Jesus to practice it with those close to him.
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2020.10.05 19:30 Ainfluencer Top 15 Music Influencers on Instagram in 2020

Music influencers can sway their audience’s purchasing choices due to their power, expertise, position, or connection with their audience.
They’re generally well-established artists who brands reach out to and collaborate with. There’s been a big shift in this influencer category with Tik Tok now becoming heavily prevalent and influential.
In this post, you will find a list of the top 15 music influencers on Instagram.

15. Baby Ariel

Ariel Rebecca Martin is an 18 years old American singer. She is also a social media personality, singer, and actress and is known as Baby Ariel in the online world. Ariel is well-known for her videos on the Tiktok platform and because of this popularity, she can be one of our top music influencers. @babyariel

14. Jannat Zubair Rahman

Jannat Zubair Rahmani is only 17 years old and it is hard to consider her as one of the top music influencers in the world, but with 10 million followers no one can ignore her and she caters to her niche. She is a rising star from India and is growing very fast. @jannatzubair29

13. Chance the Rapper

Chance the Rapper (real name Chancelor Jonathan Bennett) is one of the unique American rappers, singers, songwriters, and music influencers. He gained his popularity on the internet and published his earliest mixtapes on streaming services; using social media to create brand awareness and create a reputation.– @chancetherapper

12. Loren Gray

In the world of music influencers Loren Gray is another one who received her big boost thanks to TikTok. Her success in making videos in TikTok led to the creation of a social media popularity with 17.7 million Instagram followers and 3.5 million subscribers on YouTube. @loren

11. Dove Cameron

Dove Cameron is one of the young music influencers who have almost 31 million followers on Instagram. In addition to being a popular singer, Dove is a famous actress. She is well-known in the Disney Channel adolescent sitcom, Liv and Maddie, for playing a dual role as the eponymous protagonists and playing Mal in the Descendants film series. @dovecameron

10. Snoop Dogg

Snoop Dogg (real name Calvin Cordozar Broadus Jr.) is a 47 years old rapper and social media personality. He is also a songwriter and producer. He has 35.7 million followers on Instagram and more than 5 million subscribers on YouTube. Cannabis brands love Snoop Dogg for his advocacy on smoking weed. He’s one of the biggest weed marketing tools on the planet. @snoopdogg

9. Camila Cabello

Camila Cabello has 40.3 million followers on Instagram. She is a Cuban-American singer and songwriter. In 2016, Cabello declared that it had partnered with Save the Children to develop a limited-edition “Love Only” T-shirt to increase consciousness of the problems on equal rights for women to schooling, health care and possibilities for success. @camila_cabello

8. Cardi B

Cardi B (full name Belcalis Marlenis Almanzar) is an American 26 years old rapper. She is also a television personality. She is well known for her breakout single, “Bodak Yellow”, which reached number one on the Billboard Hot 100 in the United States in 2017. @iamcardib

7. Shawn Mendes

Shawn is a 21 years old Canadian singer and model. He has 52 million followers on Instagram. Mendes learned how to play guitar by exploring videos tutorial from YouTube at the age of 14. Less than one year later he started posting videos on YouTube and it was his start to become a famous influencer. @shawnmendes

6. Demi Lovato

Demi Lovato is one of the biggest names in the world of music influencers on social media with 74.3 million followers on Instagram. She published her first single from her upcoming album Tell Me You Love Me in July 2017, which immediately went into the Top 5 on the iTunes lists. @ddlovato

5. Rihanna

Pop superstar Rihanna has an Instagram account with over 75 million followers. She is known throughout her career for adopting different musical styles and reinventing her picture. She uses her Instagram account to promote her own brand of beauty, Fenty. Utilizing her music influence, Fenty is now one of the most world-renowned beauty and clothing brands. @badgalriri

4. Katy Perry

One of the most popular music influencers is Katy Perry with the full name Katheryn Elizabeth Hudson. She was born in Santa Barbara, California in 1984 and born in a religious family, Katy Perry first tried to break with a gospel album into the music business.
Perry began singing lessons around the age of 9 and when she was 13, she learned how to play guitar. Now she has more than 85 million followers on Instagram. @katyperry

3. Taylor Swift

With over 122 million followers, Taylor Swift is one of the most followed persons on Instagram. She is famous for her private life narrative songs that have gained extensive media coverage. She is 29 years old and from the age of 14, she started working in music. @taylorswift

2. Beyonce

Beyonce is an American pop star with no need for more introduction. She shares pictures frequently to her Instagram feed, which has more than 133 million followers but rarely provides any text captions. @beyonce

1. Selena Gomez

Selena Gomez is the second one in the list of most followed on Instagram. Although many music influencers are using their popularity to feature their recent album or promoted products, many are also using social media to do well.
Selena Gomez is doing a lot of job with A21, an anti-human trafficking organization, and she is using her Instagram status to encourage that cause. She has major collab deals with brands like PUMA and COACH and regularly promotes her collaborated high-end fashion gear under branding COACH x Selena Gomez & PUMA x Selena Gomez. @selenagomez
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2020.10.05 19:14 Ainfluencer Top 15 Music Influencers on Instagram in 2020

Top 15 Music Influencers on Instagram in 2020

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Music influencers can sway their audience’s purchasing choices due to their power, expertise, position, or connection with their audience.
They’re generally well-established artists who brands reach out to and collaborate with. There’s been a big shift in this influencer category with Tik Tok now becoming heavily prevalent and influential.
In this post, you will find a list of the top 15 music influencers on Instagram.

15. Baby Ariel


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Ariel Rebecca Martin is an 18 years old American singer. She is also a social media personality, singer, and actress and is known as Baby Ariel in the online world. Ariel is well-known for her videos on the Tiktok platform and because of this popularity, she can be one of our top music influencers. @babyariel

14. Jannat Zubair Rahmani


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Jannat Zubair Rahmani is only 17 years old and it is hard to consider her as one of the top music influencers in the world, but with 10 million followers no one can ignore her and she caters to her niche. She is a rising star from India and is growing very fast. @jannatzubair29

13. Chance the Rapper


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Chance the Rapper (real name Chancelor Jonathan Bennett) is one of the unique American rappers, singers, songwriters, and music influencers. He gained his popularity on the internet and published his earliest mixtapes on streaming services; using social media to create brand awareness and create a reputation.– @chancetherapper

12. Loren Gray



In the world of music influencers Loren Gray is another one who received her big boost thanks to TikTok. Her success in making videos in TikTok led to the creation of a social media popularity with 17.7 million Instagram followers and 3.5 million subscribers on YouTube. @loren

11. Dove Cameron



Dove Cameron is one of the young music influencers who have almost 31 million followers on Instagram. In addition to being a popular singer, Dove is a famous actress. She is well-known in the Disney Channel adolescent sitcom, Liv and Maddie, for playing a dual role as the eponymous protagonists and playing Mal in the Descendants film series. @dovecameron

10. Snoop Dogg


https://preview.redd.it/e54xq0o46br51.png?width=660&format=png&auto=webp&s=39d0a23cd4aaaed66fcb9fe149f6815d8439b6d0
Snoop Dogg (real name Calvin Cordozar Broadus Jr.) is a 47 years old rapper and social media personality. He is also a songwriter and producer. He has 35.7 million followers on Instagram and more than 5 million subscribers on YouTube. Cannabis brands love Snoop Dogg for his advocacy on smoking weed. He’s one of the biggest weed marketing tools on the planet. @snoopdogg

9. Camila Cabello


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Camila Cabello has 40.3 million followers on Instagram. She is a Cuban-American singer and songwriter. In 2016, Cabello declared that it had partnered with Save the Children to develop a limited-edition “Love Only” T-shirt to increase consciousness of the problems on equal rights for women to schooling, health care and possibilities for success. @camila_cabello

8. Cardi B


https://preview.redd.it/vnhqhr8f6br51.png?width=649&format=png&auto=webp&s=26035374004fb6ba36cab7ddce13f10d5365606b
Cardi B (full name Belcalis Marlenis Almanzar) is an American 26 years old rapper. She is also a television personality. She is well known for her breakout single, “Bodak Yellow”, which reached number one on the Billboard Hot 100 in the United States in 2017. @iamcardib

7. Shawn Mendes


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Shawn is a 21 years old Canadian singer and model. He has 52 million followers on Instagram. Mendes learned how to play guitar by exploring videos tutorial from YouTube at the age of 14. Less than one year later he started posting videos on YouTube and it was his start to become a famous influencer. @shawnmendes

6. Demi Lovato


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Demi Lovato is one of the biggest names in the world of music influencers on social media with 74.3 million followers on Instagram. She published her first single from her upcoming album Tell Me You Love Me in July 2017, which immediately went into the Top 5 on the iTunes lists. @ddlovato

5. Rihanna


https://preview.redd.it/8jtk0mzr6br51.png?width=682&format=png&auto=webp&s=e543496ad4596a98454968496c6ae4c92e793be5
Pop superstar Rihanna has an Instagram account with over 75 million followers. She is known throughout her career for adopting different musical styles and reinventing her picture. She uses her Instagram account to promote her own brand of beauty, Fenty. Utilizing her music influence, Fenty is now one of the most world-renowned beauty and clothing brands. @badgalriri

4. Katy Perry


https://preview.redd.it/eui3gvgv6br51.png?width=651&format=png&auto=webp&s=4695356d2e9674f1346fda59972e2fde3dff6b70
One of the most popular music influencers is Katy Perry with the full name Katheryn Elizabeth Hudson. She was born in Santa Barbara, California in 1984 and born in a religious family, Katy Perry first tried to break with a gospel album into the music business.
Perry began singing lessons around the age of 9 and when she was 13, she learned how to play guitar. Now she has more than 85 million followers on Instagram. @katyperry

3. Taylor Swift


https://preview.redd.it/vc9k62rz6br51.png?width=661&format=png&auto=webp&s=4a4094cfee7f767635ee0cd5e4efecc9e6d71e47
With over 122 million followers, Taylor Swift is one of the most followed persons on Instagram. She is famous for her private life narrative songs that have gained extensive media coverage. She is 29 years old and from the age of 14, she started working in music. @taylorswift

2. Beyonce


https://preview.redd.it/8egow5237br51.png?width=668&format=png&auto=webp&s=0efaf5086e4644aa894b624174a072bbde9f8249
Beyonce is an American pop star with no need for more introduction. She shares pictures frequently to her Instagram feed, which has more than 133 million followers but rarely provides any text captions. @beyonce

1. Selena Gomez


https://preview.redd.it/4avxpkj67br51.png?width=653&format=png&auto=webp&s=39a48d24927639958290b4df110324bd1617c177
Selena Gomez is the second one in the list of most followed on Instagram. Although many music influencers are using their popularity to feature their recent album or promoted products, many are also using social media to do well.
Selena Gomez is doing a lot of job with A21, an anti-human trafficking organization, and she is using her Instagram status to encourage that cause. She has major collab deals with brands like PUMA and COACH and regularly promotes her collaborated high-end fashion gear under branding COACH x Selena Gomez & PUMA x Selena Gomez. @selenagomez
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2020.10.05 08:08 Azrael_Ze Hero Guide - Rozalia Part 2

Hero Guide - Rozalia Part 2
Today, we're glad to present you with the second part of Rozalia’s guide!

4. Recommended Enchantments:
Meteor
When you have the 40% max ATK bonus, you can choose Meteor to improve your damage. Although Rozalia has the AoE skill Sanctified Wrath that doesn't benefit from Meteor, Rozalia’s key skills are Chivalry, Sword of Protection, and her 3-Cost skill. The high damage granted by Meteor allows Rozalia to kill Landius with his Fusion Power buff, and Jugler in Water can also be killed very easily without Last Rites' full HP bonus. When not in water and without his defense bonus, Jugler is very vulnerable. Suitable for PvP.

Full Moon
Rozalia's super-high ATK is boosted even further with Full Moon's ATK bonus. Before entering battle, it can increase your DEF by 20%. This enchant is recommended for use with a huddled formation. Her damage dealt will be very high. Suitable for PvE.


Breeze
With Breeze and Rozalia's ultra-high Mobility, her threat range can reach 7+3+3, basically allowing her to move wherever she wants! However, her ATK won't be enough to kill the opponent's tank in one hit. When using a rush strategy, you can consider using Breeze. Suitable for both PvE and PvP.

5. Recommended Equipments:
SSR Seal Guardian
Provides the highest ATK and increases HP and DEF, making it a very robust choice.


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Provides the highest ATK and a Mobility reduction effect that breaks Guard. With its high SKILL, it can be used with Meteor to kill tanks.


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Essential for clearing bosses for the first time in the early stages of the game. Its ATK reduction special effect makes it easier to take on dragon boss battles.


SSR Aeolus' Battle Armor
Provides additional damage reduction when Rozalia has 3 stacks of Faith. With Aeolus' Battle Armor, Rozalia gains a very high damage reduction effect on her terrain when using Flier soldiers. It can be said that this is the best choice for Rozalia.


SSR Fury of Tyr
The most popular helmet. When Rozalia is using Chivalry with [Sword of Protection], she can stably trigger Fury of Tyr's damage increase effect and improve her burst damage.

SSR Vampire Mask
Its 50% chance to reduce DEF can be triggered by using Chivalry and [Sword of Protection], and its ability to reduce the enemy's DEF before battle is excellent.


SSR Charon
Has a 50% chance to increase the damage taken by enemies within 3 squares by 15%. If it can stably be applied to the enemy tank, its effect is better than that of Fury of Tyr. However, if Gospel is present, it will not take effect. In PvE, it can steadily improve the damage dealt by your team against bosses through [Sword of Protection], which is also excellent.


SSR Twilight Star
In most cases, Rozalia will aim to eliminate Jugler first. When Jugler's soldiers are Lancers, you can use Twilight Star to destroy Last Rites’ full HP damage reduction effect. The only drawback is that it lacks the 3% base ATK of other accessories.


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Judge Talisman can also be used here. These two items are used to counter Holy units and Fliers, respectively. They grant 8% ATK and can be selected according to the specific situation.

6. Recommended Soldiers:
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The Griffin Knight's problem has always been its squishiness, but with Rozalia's 3-Cost's range reduction before battle, the Griffin Knight can reach its full damage potential, making it a deadly choice. The can also gain a considerable degree of tankiness on certain terrain through the Aerobatics and Ground-air Coordination Flier technologies.

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Cavalry technologies are excellent, as is the Heavensguard’s unique skill, and Rozalia can gain 3 Mobility with Heavensguards every time she acts again. The main problem is that they are easily countered by Lancers.

7. PvP Partners
Tiaris
Iris
Although both of them can provide Rozalia with a lot of damage, only with Teddy Bear can they allow a 3-Mobility Rozalia to trigger 3 stacks of Faith, then when Sword of Protection has 1 round left after attacking, grant 1 extra round of burst damage or attack protection.

Wiler
Wiler's 3-Cost skill is very suitable for Rozalia, providing 3 rounds of healing before battle, increased damage dealt and reduced damage taken, and rendering [Sword of Protection]'s remaining 1 turn of protection more useful.

8. PvP Counter Heroes:
Zerida
Everyone knows how deadly Killing Blow Zerida is, and she even poses a major threat when you have a tank with Guard. Without Faith, Rozalia can easily be killed by Back Stab or Killing Blow.

Hiei
When Hiei actively enter Dark Dragon form, his threat range becomes huge, making it difficult for Rozalia to safely get close enough to stack Faith. A Back Stab Hiei can use Sword of the Darkness Flame to eliminate Rozalia very easily.

9. Overall Evaluation:
Rozalia is like a combination of Leon and Lanford, and her Sword of Protection allows her to steadily improve the stats of her teammates. Her super-high threat range makes her deadly against lineups without a tank, and the huge damage of her 3-Cost skill allows her soldiers to deal their full damage, killing non-tank classes stably. Her weakness is also obvious. When she has no way to trigger Faith, she will not gain additional damage or damage reduction, so you can use Assassins to kill her directly when her Faith is not high enough, and you can equip a Judge Talisman to restrain Rozalia when she is using her Silver Knight Commander class.
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2020.10.03 03:49 allybear29 I am 53 years old, have a combined $210,000 annual income, live on Long Island, NY, and work as a Project Coordinator

First, I'm sorry this is so long. Second - please be nice. We have debt, bad habits, and are Catholic. So if any of those things are going to get you spun up, just skip this one.
Section One: Assets and Debt Use this section to explain your current financial picture at large.
Everything here is joint – “M” and I have been married 22 years and we’ve had “smashed money” that whole time (and really for about a year before that).
Retirement Balance (and how you got there): Approximately $500,000 in a variety of IRAs and current 401(k)s.
Equity if you're a homeowner (and how much you put down and how you accumulated that payment). Bought our house in 2001 for $239,000 with 20% down (some aggressive saving and a gift from each of our parents). We refinanced, took some cash out for some home repairs, and reduced it to a 15-year loan in 2009 – our current equity would be about $195,000, but similar homes in the neighborhood are listed at $475,000-$525,000, so if we ever sell, we’re probably coming out ahead.
Savings account balance: $6,000
Checking account balance: $6,500
Credit card debt (and how you accumulated it): I hope you’re sitting down. Approximately $40,000. Yes, you read that right. How we accumulated it? The house is 90 years old and constantly falling apart, so we’ve had to charge things that needed to be done (some we wanted to have done, but some – like the time our oil burner stopped working in December – were needs). We had two dogs with numerous medical issues – I don’t want to calculate what they cost me, but they each had surgeries that were about $5,000 (each), plus other chronic and acute medical issues. And yes…for a while, we were doing and buying things we probably shouldn’t have (not bad things, just vacations, clothes, and non-essential home improvements) So…when I’m 100 and greeting people at Wal-Mart, I’ll at least have some good memories. That said, I can’t tell you the last time I used credit – if we can’t afford to pay cash, we don’t do it (and I say that fully realizing most people would feel that I shouldn’t do anything).
Student loan debt (for what degree): None – my husband went to the military and then to work after high school and I went back to community college later in life and paid as I went.
Anything else that's applicable to you: If my ex-husband dies before me, I’ll have about $6,000 in a money market that he must have forgotten about. When we divorced, he was supposed to liquidate all those accounts and give me half. He was an accountant and a SOB, so I never knew exactly what we had, but what I got seemed accurate (it paid for furniture, my wedding to M and part of this house, so I was OK with it). Lo and behold, a couple years ago, I found out we still have this money market account in both names. I tried to find him so we could liquidate/split it, but he’s missing. I get the statements here now, and the good part is he’s older than me, so I’m holding out hope he predeceases me and it will be mine.
Section Two: Income
Income Progression: I've been working in my field for a year and a half, my starting salary was $100,000. I did a salary story with the entire progression – long story short, I’ve made more, and I’ve made less, but this is probably about the average of the last five years.
My husband has been at his job for 14 years – he started there making around $75,000 and now makes $110,000. They usually give him a $10,000 bonus at the end of the year, but are always crying poverty if people ask for a raise. Prior to that, he worked for a company that paid very well and he had a 15-minute commute, but he got out one step ahead of their bankruptcy.
Main Job Monthly Take Home:
Me: $5,152
J: $6,230
Side Gig Monthly Take Home:
M is paid $1,300/month by our parish for serving as Youth Minister.
Any Other Monthly Income: $16.00
I get quarterly dividends on stock I was given when I was born (I may not have been born into money, but apparently my grandparents had friends who thought this was a good baby gift). The last few were around $50, so I divided by 3.
Section Three: Expenses
Rent / Mortgage / HOA fees (please specify how you split it if living with a partner): $3,043, which includes the property taxes and homeowner's insurance
Savings contribution: $500/month without fail (my bank transfers $100 if we get over $500 in, so once each paycheck and once when we put the church check in). More if I feel the savings needs a boost.
Debt payments:
Donations: OK – anyone who isn’t screaming because I owe $40K is going to start now.
Electric: $110
Gas (stove/hot water): $50
Oil: $250/month in the winter
Wifi/Cable: $179
Cellphone: $252 for both of us (I get mine expensed except $26 for my phone payment)
Subscriptions:
Car payment / insurance: $295/month for my car (leased). My husband is driving a 10-year old car that is paid off. $128/month for auto insurance
Lawn care: $50/month
Commuting: Now that we’re in COVID times, I’ve been buying a 10-trip off peak railroad ticket every five days for $78.75. Pre-COVID, M and I each bought a monthly ticket for $270, and I took the subway most days for an additional $100/month. I fill up the car about once a month (~$36) and M fills his about every other week (~$70/month)
Saturday, September 26, 2020
7:45 am: Up and at ‘em! I get up, get coffee, check emails and social media and start the day.
8:00 am: M leaves the house for a long list of errands, the payment for which will be shown below. I put in a load of laundry and discover…a leak! There is a large pipe between our powder room sink (which I used when I woke up) and the outside world that runs through the basement and is apparently leaking. Yay whee. If you get one thing from this diary, let it be these words of wisdom – don’t buy an old house! No beautiful feature is worth the aggravation! I get the water (I hope it’s water) cleaned up, a load of laundry in, take a shower, do some picking up around the house, get dressed in a Rangers t-shirt and cut off distressed jeans, do my makeup (Olay microsculpting serum and Miracle Blur over the bottom of my face, pink, gray, and violet eyeshadows, a swipe of foundation under my eyes, black eyeliner, black mascara, and dark brown eye pencil. This is standard everyday makeup for me and will be repeated each day. I put volumizing mousse in my hair and blow dry it (also routine).
In the meantime, M gets a haircut ($30 including tip), sets up the video equipment at church, goes to CVS for passport photos that he needs for an application ($18.87), and goes to the religious goods store for a book of the Liturgy of the Hours ($42.31). He is starting formation for the diaconate (the process of becoming a Deacon in the Catholic Church) today, and they said he’ll need that book. He also needs the photos for his application, and he stops at the bank for two money orders – one to send with the background check request and one for his high school transcript ($26). On the way home, he picks up breakfast (brunch?) for us – classic New York BEC, SPK (bacon, egg, and cheese on a roll with salt, pepper and ketchup) for him and egg whites, turkey and swiss cheese on a whole wheat wrap for me ($10.78), as well as cigs for him and vape cartridges for me ($36).
The washing machine isn’t causing any additional leakage, so I move the wash to the dryer and start moving the winter clothes from the portable closet in front of the leaking pipe upstairs (they’re not wet, but we’re going to have to move the closet when the plumber comes).
After eating the egg sandwiches, we get changed for deacon class – I look like a good church lady in black slacks, a black and white flowered shirt with a black tank underneath, and black sandals with a chunky 2.5” heel. M goes with the classic golf shirt and dockers. While we’re getting changed, he mentions he needs new underwear, so I whip out the phone and order him some ($18.64).
6:30 pm: Home from deacon class and Mass and the groceries show up! I ordered them yesterday, but I don’t think the charge went through till today, so here goes. Asparagus, broccoli, celery, bananas, cucumber, lime, grape tomatoes, peaches, carrots, potatoes, spinach, lettuce, zucchini, frozen burgers, ground turkey, chicken breasts, whole chicken, fried chicken and a pot pie for J’s lunches, yogurt, sugar free pumpkin spice creamer (YES! I’ve been looking for it for weeks!), milk, heavy cream, OJ, k-cups, frozen green beans, cauliflower rice, stuffing mix, microwave rice, cake mix (the good ones were on sale), chicken broth, potato chips, and trash bags. Spent $154.95 including delivery, saved $14.50 (very low for me), tipped the delivery guy $10.
7:00 pm: After putting away all that food, what do we do? If you guessed order dinner, you’d be right! I don’t cook on Saturday unless we’re having company. We order from a new taco place – three each and “Mexican wings”. The wings were meh, but the tacos ranged from good to outstanding. $53.78 including tip. After dinner, M starts post-production of the Mass video and I do some laundry, watch the NASCAR race and the hockey game, and play games on my iPad. Remember, you’ll be old someday too!
11:00 pm: I go to the basement to pick up laundry and remember I wanted to order a new garden flag (this isn’t as random as it sounds – all my seasonal decorations are stored in the basement). I have had a cart set up for days with two garden flags ($6.99 each) and four magnetic mailbox covers for my parents for Christmas ($11.99 each) – they’ve talked about having a different one for each season, and I saw them when I was looking for a garden flag. Total with tax and free shipping: $61.94. I love Christmas and generally spend way too much on gifts so I’m trying to start shopping before December and at least spread out the pain. We went to a crafts fair a few weeks ago and I picked up a few things and now I’ve got this done – go me!!
12:30 pm: The hockey game is over (2 OT!) and I go to bed. M is napping waiting for his video production to finish.
Daily Total: $463.27
Sunday, September 27
7:00 am: The alarm goes off – ugh. It’s the first day of Religious Ed (virtual, but I have to do a 9:45 zoom with my 4th graders). Coffee, social media, shower, dress, makeup. Put on a black eyelet dress because we’re going back to church today so M can videotape First Communion. Do the usual makeup/hair thing.
10:30 am: My 4th graders are great and we’re ready to roll (M has on a shirt and tie in honor of the First Communion), and we’re off to Mass. Drop off the food I bought for our food pantry last week and help him video. Of course, the kids are adorable!
12:00 noon: We’re starving after church, so we stop at our favorite local pizza place on the way home. Get a variety of slices for $22.62, including a tip (we’re getting it to go, but I’m tipping everywhere, because I know restaurants have been hurt badly by the pandemic. These folks are in NYC and still haven’t opened inside dining.)
1:30 pm: Ate, ran more laundry, changed into the jeans I wore yesterday and a Yankees t-shirt and call the nail place. Of all my expenses, nails are probably the most non-negotiable – I’ve been getting my nails done for 40 years, and when I couldn’t do so during the lockdown, I was miserable. They can take me right away, which makes me happy.
3:00 pm: All 20 nails done – gel on the fingers and a regular pedicure with callus removal ($75 plus $15 tip = $90). I went with an autumn theme and got copper on the fingers and bronze toes – the nail polish looked in the jar like it would match the toes, but it doesn’t. Stop at CVS for eye cream (Olay for tired eyes) and mascara (L’Oreal Voluminous) - $27 with coupons. M asked me to pick up cigs on the way home, so I do, as well as vape cartridges, which I don’t technically need yet, but it will save a trip later in the week ($36).
3:30 pm: While at the nail place, I saw that one of our favorite local restaurants had a fire, which consumed an entire block of restaurants and small businesses. The Chamber of Commerce is doing a GoFundMe, and I donate $25 to the cause - $28.75 including the charge. I also notice that the weekly charge for my church donation went through ($75).
11:30 pm: Took a quick nap (the highlight of my week every week), put some fall decorations out, had our family Zoom call, laundry, got the end of the winter clothes moved upstairs, had dinner (roast chicken, stuffing, mashed potatoes, and roasted asparagus), made an apple crisp (I’m not a huge dessert person but M is and I like making desserts, so it works), watched baseball, football, the NASCAR race, and basketball, and took a quick shower. Bring a Light & Fit Toasted Coconut Vanilla yogurt (the best!) to bed, finish my book (“Next Stop, Chancey”) and find the next in the series on my iPad – I’ve read them all before, but I’m in the mood for something cozy, especially after reading about the Current Occupant’s taxes – ugh!) , and turn off the lights around midnight.
Daily Total: $279.37
Monday, September 28
6:45 am: I work from home M/W/F and so I can sleep in. Relatively speaking, anyway. Get dressed in a sleeveless top and shorts (despite the fall decorations, fall nails, and roast chicken/apple crisp, it feels rather summery out there), do makeup, have some coffee and scroll through emails/socials, move yet another load of laundry (I’m trying to get it all done before the plumber comes), find the number for the plumber and give it to M to call, get the trash out, and boil some eggs for breakfast this week. I’m sitting in front of the computer by 8:15, which is ok (technically, my hours are 8:30-5:30 – it’s usually more like 8:30-6:00, and on WFH days, starting at 7:30 is not unheard of). M drops off the car at the shop – I think I forgot to mention this, but he mentioned yesterday that when he was driving around Saturday, there was a grinding noise when he backed up. More joy to come, I’m sure.
9:45 am: I hear M on the phone with the garage – apparently, they can get a used part and do the job for $450. Not great, but it’s better than it might have been! He works from home basically every day except when he has to see customers, but thankfully we’re separated enough that we can hear each other but it’s not intrusive.
10:30 am: Between cursing at people on the phone, M calls the plumber and I grab some cheese and more coffee! I’d tell you about my job, but honestly, it’s not worth talking about. Basically, I go to meetings, take notes on meetings, and send follow-ups (I do other things, but that’s most of it). When I get off my 11:00 am meeting, I’ll find out when the plumber is coming. You guys are getting a much more exciting week than I expected!
12:30 pm: What a miserable day – it seems like everyone is annoyed! Take a break to eat a slice of leftover pizza and a Diet Coke (M finishes some rotisserie chicken from last week). He says the plumber may come today to look at the situation but can’t do the work till tomorrow.
6:00 pm: Keep my head down and get some work done in the afternoon and knock off for the day. Run downstairs and make dinner – “tacos” with strips of beef grilled with Korean barbecue sauce, shredded cabbage, cheddar cheese, pineapple salsa, cucumber slices, and lime inside warmed tortillas. Delicious, if I say so myself!
7:30 pm: I get on a Zoom faith sharing meeting and M gets on a Zoom religious ed class.
11:59 pm: Contemplated Sunday’s Gospel with my small group, watched Tampa Bay win the Stanley Cup, took a shower and set clothes out for tomorrow, and off to bed. M picked up the car after Religious Ed.
Daily Total: $450.00
Tuesday, September 29
5:45 am: Ugh. Up and out – I’m wearing a green dress with a black jacket and have black slingbacks in my bag. I have to walk 30 short blocks and five long blocks once I get off the train, so I’m traveling light. I used to take the subway to my office, but since COVID, I try to limit that as much as possible.
7:45 am: Off the railroad and walk uptown. I actually don’t mind the walk, because when I WFH, I walk very little – at the beginning of the lockdown, I had a nice walking routine, but lately the work seems to start the minute I wake up, so walking to work takes care of getting in those STEPS! I forgot my boiled eggs and I’m starving, so I end up buying an egg sandwich. $5.43
12:30 pm: Because I only go to the city twice a week and I have to walk uptown with all my work stuff, I don’t bring lunch often (pre-pandemic, I used to bring breakfast and lunch every day, but I also took the subway). Decide to run to Pret and my boss and co-worker both ask me to pick something up. Of course, no one (including me) has anything but a $20, so they both say they’ll get me next time. I get my favorite chicken parm wrap and a Diet Coke. $32
12:45 pm: I look at my personal email and discover that J’s car registration needs to be renewed. Hop on the DMV website and take care of that. $158.50. I also realize I never took out the sausages for tonight’s dinner and call M to ask him to do so. He mentions the plumber has still not shown up.
5:45 pm: Leave a little early to get to the Fed Ex office and make my train home. I’m a little later than I’d like to be and it’s raining, so I get the subway, which is thankfully empty, reasonably clean, and quick. $2.75
7:15 pm: M picks me up at the train station and mentions that he was so busy working that he didn’t take the sausages out. He asks me what I want to eat and we end up at Wendy’s. Cheeseburger, fries, and (surprise, surprise) a Diet Coke. He gets the same thing, but bigger. $19.75
11:30 pm: Avoid the debate by watching the Yankees pound the Indians. Usual routine (plus ironing a shirt for J, because he has to go to a customer tomorrow) and off to sleep. I’m up to Book 3 in the Chancey series, for those keeping score.
Daily Total: $218.43
Wednesday, September 29
5:30 am: Double ugh. Woke up to use the bathroom and couldn’t get back to sleep, so here we are. Get dressed (long-sleeved Yankees t-shirt, straight leg jeans), do the face, have some coffee, and try to avoid the fact that my boss sent me an email at 11:00 pm last night looking for changes to a document, which I said I would do today. Get the trash out, pick up a little around the house, and get to work by 7:00. OH, and despite the lack of plumber and his lack of general motivation, M moved the plastic closet…in front of the washing machine! Glad I bought him underwear, because I won’t be doing laundry any time soon. Now I’m wondering if he looked at the menu (I am an obsessive meal planner and post it on the fridge weekly) and that’s why he didn’t take the sausages out – he’s avoiding zoodles! He can run but he can’t hide – I have zucchini and I’m going to spiralize it sooner or later!
8:00 am: The document my boss needed is out, the agenda for our 9:00 am meeting is done, the morning emails are sorted (for now), and I got a link to our parish survey up on the Facebook page, so I make an egg and cheese on a tortilla and eat at my desk.
12:50 pm: Wednesday is conference call hell – I have recurring calls every Wednesday at 9:00, 10:30, and 11:30, and the added fun today of a 10:00. There’s also a webinar every Wednesday that I try to tune into. Grab some chips and a Diet Coke and go check it out.
2:15 pm: Still no damn plumber, but I’ll let M worry about that when he’s home tomorrow. My garden flags arrived, so that’s good. Hoping to get out and put the pumpkin one out before it gets dark, but the way today is going, that might not actually happen. However, I realize I never put dinner in the crockpot. Luckily, it only takes 3-4 hours on high, so I take care of that. It’s Tuscan Chicken with sun-dried tomatoes and spinach. By 2:30, I’m back at my desk with another Diet Coke and hard at it. Nightmares of rescheduling meetings, missing documents, etc.
6:45 pm: Still at my desk! OK, I took some time to send an email to the parish webmaster about the survey, update this, and read the R29 money diary of the day. But overall, I’ve been working with no apparent end in sight – I could easily be here all night, but I won’t be because (a) I’m falling asleep at my desk and (b) I have a 7:30 Religious Ed teachers meeting. Hopefully I won’t fall asleep during that. Make a list of things for my boss and I to review tomorrow and finish prepping dinner.
7:15 pm: Dinner was delicious – we had the chicken with rice for M and cauliflower rice for me, sautéed broccoli, and a basic salad (bagged spring mix, cherry tomatoes, cucumber). Now off to Zoom!
11:45 pm: The Yankees game is still on, but I’m showered, my clothes are set out for tomorrow, and I’m fading. Turn off the light and hope for a win.
Daily Total: $0.00 (bet you didn’t see that coming!)
Thursday, October 1
5:45 am: You know it…ugh. Get up, coffee, very quick scroll through the Yankees score/e-mail/social media. Get dressed in a black v-neck sweater, black and gray plaid skirt, and black jacket (not the same one I wore the other day). Am grateful the skirt fits – I gained some weight and am trying to resist buying clothes. Make sure I have the right shoes in my bag – I’m wearing high-heeled gray suede Mary Janes today.
8:15 am: At my desk and ready to go – I remembered to bring 2 hard-boiled eggs today, which I eat with coffee while looking through emails.
12:30 pm: Call after call after call, but I have a half-hour to eat. Run to the fancy buffet place that just re-opened for 2 meatballs, brussels sprouts, broccoli, salad, and the inevitable Diet Coke ($15.75). Manage to eat before my 1:00 pm call – go me!
3:30 pm: Leave to go to a job site and pick something up that has to be shipped to Italy. Something that's almost as tall as me, but thankfully not heavy. Taxi down there because I’m in a hurry and I can get reimbursed ($14.04, including tip), expensed.
4:00 pm: I get a cab to the Fed Ex office – thankfully the first one I see is a minivan, so I fit in just fine ($12.74, including tip), expensed.
5:30 pm: Well, that was harder than it needed to be – the Fed Ex office I went to didn’t have a box that would fit the item, so they suggested another Fed Ex office about 6 blocks away, so I had to walk through midtown Manhattan carrying an object almost as tall as me (it's 5' long and I'm 5'3" tall) while dodging oblivious people. Thankfully, the other office had my box, and they were super-sweet and helpful, but it took them forever to get it done. Bought the box and bubble wrap, which will be expensed (I brought the Fed Ex label, but I don’t remember the account number) ($43.54). Get a nice early train home, though!
6:45 pm: Wow, we’re eating when I’m usually getting the train! Cheeseburgers, tots (tater for J, cauliflower for me), green beans, and vinegar coleslaw with the end of the shredded cabbage. Get the kitchen cleaned and the dishwasher run and settle in to watch the Jets – I’m not holding out much hope, but you never know!
11:30 pm: I’ve showered, set out clothes for me and M (he’s seeing customers tomorrow), I prepped for Youth Group, which I’m leading because he’ll be working, and the Jets are winning, so I decide it’s time to sleep. Up to Book 5 of the Chancey series. I find series usually go downhill after about the third or fourth book, but I’m not sure what I feel like reading, so here we are. OH, at some point M must have gone to the convenience store, because there are vape cartridges on the table ($36).
Daily Total: $122.07; $70.32 expensed
Friday, October 02, 2020
6:00 am: Wake up, grab coffee, find out the Jets lost after all, do the morning e-mail/social media scroll. Leaving early to deal with that work errand has left me with a ton of stuff to do, so I get dressed (long-sleeved v-neck gray t-shirt, white tank because the v-neck is halfway to my belly button, dark wash skinny jeans), put out the trash, peel two hard-boiled eggs, and head to my desk.
12:30 pm: As always, call after call after call. Plus a bit of aggravation when my boss asks me at 10:30 for an agenda for the 11:00 call, which I sent him at about 7:30, and which he returns at 10:59 with the formatting looking like nothing on earth. Yay whee! And a project was mentioned that he forgot to tell me I’d do. So in case I thought I’d have nothing to do (that never happens on Fridays), that’s not happening. Anyway, between calls, I run downstairs for the lunch of champions – a Hot Pocket and a Diet Coke. Just that kind of day.
6:15 pm: Realize I have to run Youth Group at 7 and I haven’t even done my haimakeup. Get that done, heat up some frozen cauliflower rice/broccoli/cheese combination and add some leftover chicken. With a green salad on the side, surprisingly yummy.
8:15 pm: I am not a good youth leader…couldn’t get anyone talking about the subject of the day, which I thought would be a good one. I did make them laugh a few times, so that’s something.
M is going to have some expenses because he went to see customers today, but I don’t know what they are and his company will reimburse him, so I’m just leaving them out.
Daily Total: $0.00
This is the Week That Was:
Food + Drink: $326.06
Fun / Entertainment: $108 (if people can put drugs in as entertainment, I’m putting our nicotine in)
Home + Health: $61.94
Clothes + Beauty: $165.64
Transport: $638.03 (some of it will be expensed)
Other: $234.47
Lastly, reflect on your diary! How do you feel about your spending? Was this a normal week for you? Has this inspired you to make changes or has it given you a “wow I’m doing pretty good” confidence boost? Is there anything you’re actively working on? No need to answer any or all these questions but just use this space to write any thoughts you have!
This was a fairly normal week except for the car breaking and needing to be registered – we're saving some now that we WFH more because M will not bring food from home, but I used to bring breakfast and lunch at least four days a week. I know we should make changes, but I also know we don’t want to – honestly, if you looked at the way I lived 15 years ago, I’ve made a lot of changes already. We’re working on the credit cards – I’ve gotten rid of several already (paid off, not just moved balances around) and we don’t use them at all anymore (I can honestly say I don’t remember the last thing I charged). The bad news is that M’s car is on its last legs, and so I see car payments in our future. Hopefully, he’ll get something used – we have my car when we want to look good going somewhere (mine isn’t super-fancy, it just wasn’t hit by a bus and full of stuff for his job).
OH, and the plumber still hasn’t shown up! But that will be for next week’s expenses.
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2020.10.03 01:24 muxerr Girl Defined 2020 Conference Recap Part 7/9

I was going to post the last four breakout sessions together but I felt like posting something and didn't feel like watching the two final breakout sessions today, so here we are. Plus, these two were both A Lot and I don't think the next two will be as interesting.

Navigating Relationships and Romance in a God-Honoring Way, with Paul and Morgan
- Paul and Morgan are standing against a blank wall; as usual, Morgan looks high. She’s also wearing an artsy Spongebob shirt that was probably overpriced. They throw their arms in the air and “wooooo” like they’re on a rollercoaster. Paul feels confident because the first session went so well, but this time he’s wearing a shirt that’s “better for [his] physique.” They make Kristen and Bethany look like consummate professionals.
- Morgan gasps because she thought she saw something move in the corner of her eye, but nothing’s there. She (jokingly?) says that it’s the Holy Spirit. Two minutes in they remember that they should put a timer on so they know how long they’ve been talking. Morgan gasps again because she noticed Squishy was playing with toys. Paul looks and sounds like a frustrated elementary school teacher. “If you guys have stuck with us thus far, y’all are champs.” Morgan stops to take away a crinkly toy from Squishy so there’s no background noise.
- Morgan tells us that they’re here today to talk about the differences between God-honoring and worldly relationships. Paul starts off with a verse about how we should be transformed by the renewing of our minds instead of being conformed to the world. He apparently remembered this one on the spot and it’s not in his notes, so he says if we want to know the reference we’ll have to look it up.
Instead of being afraid of looking different from the world, we should embrace it. In fact, Morgan says, if our relationship blends in with those of the world, “you’re probably not doing it right.” Paul admits that this sounds a little judgmental.
On Youtube they talk about how they waited a month to hold hands and didn’t kiss until Paul had asked permission from Morgan's dad and he actually wished they hadn’t kissed until marriage. People comment all the time that they’re weird and paranoid. But so many Christians enter relationships wanting to save sex for marriage but without being intentional about boundaries, and end up violating those boundaries. Paul makes a comment about “worldly Christians” and seems to think this is a mic drop moment, but Morgan wouldn’t know because she “zoned out.”
- Don’t be afraid to set firm, serious boundaries very soon into a relationship, as soon as someone is pursuing us. We should get specific instead of just saying “no sex until marriage.”
Morgan lost her virginity in a relationship with a guy who said he was Christian but wasn’t serious about his walk with the lord. Paul is much more intentional; he told her he only wanted to hold hands with a girl he could see himself marrying, which Morgan thought was crazy. We probably don’t need to wait till marriage to hold hands, though, that’s a little much.
Paul told Morgan that one of their boundaries was that they wouldn’t kiss until engagement and/or he got her dad’s approval. They seem to have different recollections of how it went. (Side note: Imagine how fucking awkward that would be. A couple I went to high school with also didn’t kiss until he asked her dad’s permission, and from what I heard their relationship was very odd.) Paul wishes they had waited till their wedding day, but they’re not saying everyone needs to do that; it’s a bit of a grey area. But “the stricter the better.” Morgan has to stop to take another loud toy from Squishy. Squishy continues running around so Paul picks her up and holds her for a few minutes.
- If the idea of strict boundaries isn’t familiar to us, we might think Paul and Morgan are crazy and that it’s fine to kiss and hold hands. But the Song of Solomon says we shouldn’t awaken love until the time is right. Therefore we should be careful about what we’re doing both physically and emotionally. (The one thing I like about Paul and Morgan is that they’re pretty much the only people at this conference who seem comfortable talking about sex.)
- Don’t go too deep emotionally too soon. We should also set boundaries for how late we stay up talking and the types of conversations we have, avoiding divulging all our deepest thoughts and dreams right away. (I find this confusing, because fundies think dating should be intentional and serious from the beginning. Isn’t it necessary then to talk about all the important aspects of you/your life?) All of our conversations need to be God-honoring and edifying. Late night conversations tend to lead to crossing boundaries. Paul adds that there’s also grey area here and we don’t need to take their opinions as holy writ. But as believers we absolutely cannot engage in any premarital sexual activity. They advertise their book, Intentional Dating.
- Don’t isolate yourself in your relationship, even in your marriage. If we isolate ourselves from our friends and family and are alone with our boyfriend a lot, that can lead to dangerous things. “The enemy loves to isolate us.” We can even push God to the side, as Morgan has done in the past. We need mentorship and accountability; there’s so much wisdom in giving a mentor a list of your boundaries so they can check up on you. Paul: “Tenth Avenue North said no man is an island, but I would extend that to no couple is an island.”
- Morgan’s gonna let Paul handle this one. If our partner is dealing with a porn addiction or struggling with lust, we should know how to handle it. We should be proactive and find out if they have an accountability partner and where they are in their struggle. Porn isn’t necessarily a red flag; if they dealt with it in the past or last slipped up months ago, it’s probably something you can work through.
- Make sure you’re connecting spiritually and on similar levels in that regard. It’s not enough if someone just pays lip service to Christianity. If Christianity is at the core of your life, it should be at the core of his. If not, he probably won’t be able to lead you spiritually. Morgan: “Again, I’m a great example of what not to do!” Her ex brought her down spiritually because he wasn’t serious about religion. If we’re interested in a guy like that, we should give him the chance to grow spiritually and prove himself before we begin a dating relationship.
- Some people might think that Paul and Morgan are being too strict and should show more grace. Morgan: “NEVER! Just kidding.” But this is really important to them and they’re not messing around.
- Look at the guy’s spiritual walk. Morgan: “Ladies, this is a hard one, a hard pill to swallow. Are you going to be able to submit to this man? Because if you’re not, you need to peace out.” God tells us authoritatively to submit to our husbands, but we decide if we actually listen to that or not. We should make it easier on ourselves by finding a man whose spirituality we admire. Morgan says that she’s a strong, independent woman and Paul gives her a noogie. Because she’s independent-minded, she wanted a guy who was ahead of her on his spiritual walk and would be able to lead the family well.
- Be in prayer about this relationship, asking for discernment. We should invite God into our relationship. Morgan’s confident we aren’t going about our relationships willy-nilly, because we’re a special group, the Girl Defined sisterhood. She and Paul both love the sisters.

Serving God Through Missions and Orphan Work, with Ellissa Baird
- Ellissa introduces herself as Kristen and Bethany’s younger sister. If we haven’t heard, her family is actually really tall. (Ellissa is 6 ft. Also, I just realized that her name is spelled with two L’s.) She was homeschooled and instead of going to college she started working for her dad’s company, where she still works as an administrative assistant. Since last year she’s been dating a Ukrainian missionary who she hasn’t been able to see because of the pandemic. “Dating and singleness and all that is a topic for a different time, although I know it’s something we’re all as women and girls, we love talking about so much.” She tells us to go to her instagram if we want to see pictures, since she can’t show them here.
- From a very young age, Ellissa has had a heart for kids in vulnerable situations. She did a long-distance internship with an organization called Bring Me Hope that allowed her to learn about orphans and foster care. “Obviously we know with God things aren’t random.” She's been to China with this org three times, and the last time she was there a boy in her group was adopted.
- We’re going to go back and begin from Ellissa’s childhood. When she was really young her parents told her she was a sinner but Jesus had paid her debt to God and if she believed in him she could go to heaven and be with him. Her relationship with the lord is the foundation for everything else.
- When she was 10 or 11 she started reading missionary stories. She was particularly impacted by the story of a young American woman who broke off her engagement to be a missionary in Egypt, where she started an orphanage. She lists a few books and stories that caused her to become more passionate about kids who don’t know what it’s like to be loved by a mom and a dad. “I think the saddest thing of all is that they don’t know their heavenly father.”
- In her early teens Ellissa was so eager to board a plane to Africa and go love on orphaned kiddos that she fought with her parents, who didn’t think she was ready to handle missionary life on her own. If she didn’t even have enough patience to deal with her younger siblings and serve and sacrifice at home, how would she be able to deal with missionary life in another country? God revealed to her that she needed to first lay down her life for her own family.
- Some of the people watching might feel like Ellissa did, but still be stuck in “God’s waiting room.” We should use this preparatory time to test our hearts and see how we deal with others’ needs and the difficulties of life. Are we willing to serve God right now where he has us, or are we just looking for an adventure? Ellissa admits that when she was young she was partly motivated by a desire for adventure, but she matured while in God’s waiting room.
- Back to her internship, which she seems to have done fairly recently, in her mid-20s. She went to China for her first missionary/orphans experience. She worked at a camp and got to know these orphans as individual people for the first time, rather than thinking of them as a massive number. (There are 153 million orphans in the world, apparently.) She reads a quote from David Platt about how it’s much harder to ignore orphans once you know them as individuals.
- Ellissa learned during this summer in China that missions aren’t “all fun and games.” It was a lot harder than she expected: the beds were really hard and the food, noises, and smells were strange. All of the children had been through trauma that sometimes manifested as attachment disorders. “They were scared to get attached to you because they had been abandoned.” (Yeah, they’re right to be scared, because you’re literally going to abandon them! You are most likely making their attachment issues worse! Ok, I’m done.) This is an aspect of orphan care that we might not have thought about.
- God showed her that there was a lot of selfishness in her heart. She didn’t like when the kids with attachment issues rejected her because she wanted to feel needed and loved. Did she want to love and serve others unconditionally, or only when they loved her back? “Christ loved us when we were still sinners” and rejected him. (Aren’t we always sinners?)
- Orphan care isn’t some western idea that we came up with. It’s God’s idea, as we can see in the Bible. She reads a few passages about defending and helping vulnerable people: prisoners, the fatherless, the oppressed, foreigners, widows, etc. (Is she not seeing the irony here?) The gospel is the ultimate picture of missions and orphan care. Christ adopted us into his forever family, so we’re no longer orphans. This should motivate us to reach out to the needy like he reached out for us. We, the Church, are Jesus’s hands and feet.
- Now Ellissa’s going to read us Timothy Keller’s list of 9 ways we can help orphans and kids in foster care.
  1. Pray for them. We can put up a picture of an orphaned child and pray for them to find a family, and ultimately, God’s family, or invite people over for a prayer time.
  2. Advocate and raise awareness on social media. We can post about adoptable kids, become a court-appointed special advocate, or volunteer.
  3. Provide for their needs by donating money or collecting supplies.
  4. Support those who support them. Help out people who are fostering or adopting kids by making them a meal, praying for them, etc.
  5. Protect them from harm. We can consider becoming foster parents or raise money to build a children’s home.
  6. Visit them. Go on a mission trip or visit foster kids in our own city. Ellissa volunteered at her local children’s shelter.
  7. Give sacrificially to them, to organizations or to an adoptive family. We all have something we could give up in order to donate money. We can also sponsor a child online.
  8. Encourage them to press on. Sponsor a child and help them financially and through letters. Become a mentor to a teen in the foster care system.
  9. Adopt them into your family. We can also “adopt” a young adult who’s aged out of the system.
- Ellissa’s going to leave us with a final thought from David Platt’s book, Radical, which she highly recommends. The gist is that radical obedience to Christ is risky, uncomfortable, and doesn’t involve worldly wealth, but comes with a greater reward. (She should share that info with her parents.) Ellissa prays for us, asking God to touch our hearts and give us greater compassion for orphans, widows, and those who are poor or in need.
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2020.10.02 12:31 Mode2345 13 ugly (but completely normal) stages of a breakup

Obviously these won’t apply to everyone and maybe in a different order or not at all. It’s an individual process that everyone handles differently.
The most painful experience of my life came from a breakup. I know what you’re probably thinking. There are many worse things that can happen to someone than going through a breakup. But when you’re going through one, you don’t really think of the other things that can happen in life that may be worse. All that matters in that moment is that you’ve parted ways with the love of your life.
And it sucks.
But before you succumb to the pain and give up on love, you first need to know about the different stages of a breakup.
According to relationship experts, there are actually 13 ugly (but completely normal) stages.
  1. Shock
You may have known it was coming. You have felt like something was a bit off.
But it doesn’t change the first stage you need to go through: The shock of the breakup.
You’ll say to yourself, “I can’t believe this is happening to me! Sure–some things weren’t perfect, but we were good together!”
Shock is a primal response to a sophisticated loss. It’s the result of being inundated on all levels—all five of your senses overload while questions you can’t answer rain down on you, to the point at which you just short-circuit.
Who can blame you for experiencing shock? Breaking up with someone can literally feel like you’ve lost a limb.
So if you’re experiencing shock, don’t worry. There’s nothing wrong with you for feeling it. It’s the inevitable first stage we all need to go through.
  1. Pain
The pain can be physical, mental and emotional. It’s the kind of pain that you desperately want to escape from. Yet you can’t. It’s overwhelming, and no matter what you do, it’s there.
There’s a reason the pain from breakups is so painful. According to researchers, breakups have a dramatic impact on our bodies. In fact, there’s such a thing as broken heart syndrome.
The psychologist and author Guy Winch explains why the suffering of heartbreak is so painful:
“In some studies, the emotional pain people experienced was rated as equivalent to ‘nearly unbearable’ physical pain. Consider, though, that while physical pain rarely remains at such intense levels for an extended duration of time, the pain of heartbreak can linger for days, weeks, and even months. This is why the suffering heartbreak causes can be so extreme.”
As you can see, the pain you feel is completely normal. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. It is going to pass. Time is your friend, and you will continue to move through the stages of a breakup.
  1. Confusion
You know you’re in stage three because the confusion has started to set in.
A range of questions will come to mind, from “what did I do wrong” to “why didn’t I see this coming?”
Initially, you remain driven to understand what happened, at any cost. The drive to know is consuming and can come at the expense of rational thoughts and behaviors. You must understand why this happened, maybe beyond anyone’s ability to explain it. You fixate on things your ex said at various times that you see as contradicting the breakup, and you hold onto them now as if they are gospel.
Moments will come when things make some sense, yet clarity is short-lived and you find yourself asking many questions again. The constant confusion is very difficult to manage.
But, as with all of the stages of a breakup, this feeling will pass. Over time you’ll develop more clarity over the relationship and what went wrong. You’ll learn from it. For now, give yourself a break. Everyone feels confused at some point during a breakup.
  1. Denial
You’ve gone through the shock of breaking up. Then you felt overwhelming pain. This gave way to confusion.Now you’re in a state of denial. You refuse to accept the reality that you and the love of your life are no longer together.You look for something to do, some way to let your ex know how you really feel about them.
You simply can’t accept that it’s over. You hope with every ounce of your being that you can save the relationship, even at the expense of your own sanity. You postpone grieving about the end of the relationship because it’s just too heartwrenching to face up to. You decide instead to stick with the unrealistic expectation that your relationship can be saved.This is the stage of denial. You’re living your life based on a false hope that you and your ex can get back together.
Yet, during the stage of denial, you may notice small moments of the next stage. Although it seems a little disconcerting, actually the next stage is something to celebrate.
The next stage is madness. It’s when you’re starting to free yourself from the grip of the breakup.
There comes a time during a break up where you have to reflect on the relationship. What went right and what went wrong? Because the most important thing is not to make any of the same mistakes in your next relationship.
  1. Reflection
In my experience, the missing link leading to most break ups is never a lack of communication or trouble in the bedroom. It’s understanding what the other person is thinking.
Let’s face it: men and women see the word differently and we want different things from a relationship. In particular many women simply don’t understand what drives men in relationships (it’s probably not what you think).
The hero instinct is a new term in relationship psychology that’s generating a lot of buzz at the moment. It claims that men have an instinctive need to step up to the plate for the woman in this life. This is deeply rooted in male biology.
In other words, he needs to feel like your ‘hero’. Because when a man loves you he wants to provide for you, protect you, and be the one person you can count on. The kicker is that if he doesn’t get this feeling from you then he is much less likely to be in a committed, long lasting relationship.
I know it might all seem kind of silly. In this day and age, women don’t need someone to rescue them. They don’t need a ‘hero’ in their lives. But this misses the point about what the hero instinct is all about. Although you may not need a hero, a man is compelled to be one. And if you want him to fall in love with you, then you have to let him. The interesting thing is that the hero instinct is something women can actively trigger in their man. There are things you can say, messages you can send, requests you can use to trigger this natural biological instinct.
  1. Madness
Did I just say that the stage of madness is something to be celebrated? Yes, I did. Let me ask you:
Have you done any of the following, or something similar?
The madness phase can be categorized into three:
  1. wanting them back
  2. undoing things
  3. fixing things
Here’s why the madness stage is something to celebrate.
You’re doing stupid and inexplicable things because you are starting to accept that you and your ex are no longer together. You’re getting a bit desperate because, somewhere deep down, you know there’s not much more you can do to save the relationship.
Although it’s painful and you may feel silly for doing crazy things in the name of love, it’s all part of the process. Be grateful for the mad moments, because they represent a piercing of the illusion that you and your ex are still together. You’re starting to accept this, deep down.
  1. Anger
Has anyone ever tried to make you feel guilty for being angry?
They probably weren’t going through a breakup at the time. How can you be anything but angry when you and the supposed love of your life have parted ways? Why wouldn’t you feel angry about the excruciating heartbreak you’re going through right now?
Instead of denying yourself the feeling of anger, instead, embrace it. Feelings of anger are the beginnings of creative power. If you accept and embrace the anger, it will spur you into action.
In any case, the point about anger is that it’s a normal stage of the breakup process. It’s part of your psyche’s defense mechanisms against the pain of what you’re going through. If you’re feeling anger, it’s a good sign and it’s something to be cherished. You’re completely normal for feeling it.
  1. Auto-pilot
After feeling anger, you may start to experience feelings of numbness. You simply feel exhausted. Emotionally drained. Physically tired.
The pain that was once the focus of every train of thought has given way to stasis. This happens when you’re feeling a combination of resignation and withdrawal. Resignation because you’re now starting to accept the reality of the breakup. Withdrawal because you know you must welcome the pain. You feel numb, spacey, and unfocused, so your autopilot function takes over to help you get through what you have to get through. That’s your survival instinct kicking into gear.
It’s an incredible insight, knowing that numbness is actually your survival instinct. This is your body putting you into a state that puts the pain of the breakup to the side so that you can get through the day.
You can do a lot when you’re in auto-pilot mode. Of course, it’s not the optimal state to be in. You are probably not experiencing very much joy. But you’re surviving. You’re here. You’re getting on with life.
There’s absolutely nothing wrong with numbness.
  1. Acceptance
The stages of your breakup are now starting to make sense. You’re beginning to understand what happened and why. Everything you’ve endured has led to this moment: you are finally accepting that you need to let your ex go.
At the moment of acceptance, you are feeling a lot better. You are quite out of the woods yet, but there’s significant relief. It’s understandable if you take into account that the majority of the emotional turmoil is caused by the excruciating over-thinking process and the inner conflict of wanting them back. This conflict has mostly been resolved by this stage.
  1. Grieving
Now that you have been through anger and madness and started to accept what is happening, you can begin to allow yourself to properly grieve the ending of the relationship.
Grieving is how you gradually let go of what might have been and adjust to what is. And over time, your outlook will naturally shift: From ‘I must demonstrate I am a worthy mate for hehim’ to ‘I can reclaim my own sense of worth.’ Grieving is what sets you free from the pit of despair.
This is perhaps, the most crucial stage of a breakup. It is the beginning process of letting go. You’ve lost something so important to you. You are allowed to grieve for it.
  1. Recognition
You don’t necessarily feel resigned to the breakup. On the contrary, you are starting to see that something good has actually come out of it. You’ve started appreciating the time you have for yourself, fulfilling your needs, and figuring out what you want for your life from now on. You are seeing your value again. At this stage, you might even feel grateful for the lessons the breakup has given you.
As painful as a breakup feels, it can be liberating to admit the reasons you are better off without your ex. Even if you thought they were the One, there were surely some obstacles and flaws in your relationship, and it frees up emotional energy to admit these shortcomings.
  1. Taking responsibility
You’ve stopped looking at your relationship with rose-colored glasses. Now, you see things objectively. You realize the reasons why the relationship didn’t work out. And surely, some the reasons were because of you. This is one sign you are getting over the pain of the breakup.
It is also liberating to acknowledge your role in the relationship’s demise. Even if your ex is 90 percent to blame, owning your part in the process is a way to make sure you learn from the relationship and position yourself for a healthier romantic future.
Taking responsibility on your end of the relationship takes real maturity. It’s been a long road. But now, you’re ready to be an adult about it.
  1. Letting go
Finally, here you are.Everything you went through has led you here. Despite feeling—many times—like you were not making progress, you actually were. It just didn’t feel like it, but there was a reason for all the pain, confusion, and mistakes.The final stage is letting go.
You must do it as gracefully as you can. Otherwise, you’ll continue stuck in a rut, pining after a relationship that has ended, even if you refuse to.Breakups can be heart wrenching and take us to the very core of our deepest wounds. It is very challenging work, but if you can manage to allow yourself to be with the pain, and use the pain to help you heal… then the end of a relationship can be an enormous opportunity for growth.
Genefe Navilon
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2020.09.30 09:22 RubySmith1 How to Resolve Selfishness

How to Resolve Selfishness
By Zhang Jing, Czech Republic

How to Resolve Selfishness
Almighty God says, “What is the standard by which a person’s deeds are evaluated as good or evil? It depends on whether or not you, in your thoughts, expressions, and actions, possess the testimony of putting the truth into practice and of living out the reality of truth. If you do not have this reality or do not live this out, then you are without a doubt an evildoer. How does God see evildoers? Your thoughts and external acts do not bear testimony for God, nor do they put Satan to shame or defeat Satan; instead, they shame God, and are riddled with marks that cause God to be ashamed. You are not testifying of God, not expending yourself for God, or meeting your responsibility toward God. You act for your own sake. What is the implication of ‘for your own sake’? For Satan. Therefore, in the end, God will say, ‘Depart from Me, you that work iniquity.’ In God’s eyes, you have not done good deeds; rather, your behavior has turned evil. You will not be rewarded; God will not remember you. Is this not completely in vain?” (“Give Your True Heart to God, and You Can Obtain the Truth” in Records of Christ’s Talks). I can see from God’s words that we may expend ourselves and suffer a bit for our duty, but if our motive in this isn’t to satisfy God and we don’t have any testimony of practicing the truth, but just satisfy ourselves, then God sees this as doing evil. It’s disgusting to Him. A couple years ago I noticed a sister was being disruptive to the church’s work, but I didn’t dare practice the truth or uphold principles. I was afraid of offending her. I didn’t expose and report her actions in time, and this harmed our gospel work. It was wrongdoing on my part, too. I’m filled with remorse and self-reproach every time I think about it.
It was late March 2018 when Sister Chen joined our team as the team leader. After a little while, I discovered that she didn’t take on responsibility in her duty. Sometimes someone we preached to wanted to investigate God’s work of the last days and she wouldn’t promptly arrange fellowship and testimony. This held up the gospel work. I sought her out to give her fellowship but I barely touched on her issues, afraid she’d take it poorly. She explained it away, saying she still had another duty and couldn’t keep up, but she’d do better in the future. I saw right away that she was taking it too lightly. She didn’t see the seriousness of the problem. I figured I had to say something more so it wouldn’t happen again and hold up the church’s work. But just as I was about to open my mouth, I thought, “She’s in charge, and I’m just a team member. If I point out her problem won’t she think I’m out of line, a busybody, and say I’m arrogant and unreasonable? Forget about it. I won’t say anything. She’s in charge, so she should know how important this duty is. She’ll take care of things in the future.” I felt a little uneasy, but I didn’t bring it up with her again.
It wasn’t long before a preacher from the Sola Fide Church wanted to look into God’s work of the last days. Time was really tight, but at this critical moment, I couldn’t get in touch with Sister Chen. I rushed to find another gospel team leader to provide fellowship. After Sister Chen found out, she reprimanded me harshly, saying, “Why did you get another team’s leader to take care of it? It’s my problem that I didn’t get it done in time and any issues are my responsibility. Bringing someone else in doesn’t accord with the principles.” I wanted to talk about this issue in fellowship with her but changed my mind, thinking, “If I criticize her right after she’s dealt with and scolded me, what will she think of me? We see each other all the time—if we’re at an impasse she’ll probably make things difficult for me. Forget it. It’s better to have one less worry. I’ll just do my own duty well.” So, I held back what I wanted to say to her.
A month or so later, a co-worker in a Christian church became interested in Almighty God’s work. I reminded Sister Chen about it several times. I said, “You have to arrange for someone to give him fellowship.” She agreed at the time, but to my surprise, two days passed without her setting anything up. I was so angry. I thought, “I told you so many times and I told you it was urgent. Why didn’t you take it remotely seriously? No, I can’t keep idly watching our gospel work being hindered this way. I have to discuss it with brothers and sisters on the team and see what we can do about her problem.” But I felt conflicted again just as I was about to get in touch with the others. If Sister Chen found out I was discussing this with everyone, she might think I was intentionally targeting her. If I offended her she might retaliate and find an excuse to dismiss me from my duty. I figured the nail that sticks out gets hammered down. I decided to wait until someone else brought it up.
That evening, thinking about how many things Sister Chen had let slide, I started feeling really anxious, but still didn’t dare speak up. I really hadn’t been taking care of my responsibilities. Feeling uneasy, I came before God in prayer. I read these words from God after praying: “The most fundamental and important components of one’s humanity are conscience and reason. What kind of person is one who lacks conscience and does not have the reason of normal humanity? Generally speaking, he is a person who lacks humanity, a person of bad humanity. Let’s analyze this closely. How does this person manifest corrupt humanity such that people say he has no humanity? What characteristics do such people possess? What specific manifestations do they present? Such people are perfunctory in their actions and stand aloof from anything that does not concern them personally. They do not consider the interests of God’s house, nor do they show consideration for God’s will. They take on no burden of testifying for God or performing their duties, and they have no sense of responsibility. … There are even people who, upon seeing a problem in the performance of their duty, remain silent. They see that others are causing interruptions and disturbances, yet do nothing to stop them. They do not consider the interests of God’s house in the least, nor do they at all think about their own duties or responsibilities. They speak, act, stand out, put forth effort, and expend energy only for their own vanity, prestige, position, interests, and honor. … Does this kind of person have conscience and reason? Does a person without conscience and reason who behaves in this way feel self-reproach? The conscience of this kind of person serves no purpose, and they have never felt self-reproach. So, can they feel the reproach or discipline of the Holy Spirit?” (“Give Your True Heart to God, and You Can Obtain the Truth” in Records of Christ’s Talks). God’s words went straight to the heart. Wasn’t I precisely the kind of person God was exposing? I lacked conscience, humanity, and I was irresponsible in my duty. I’d adopted an attitude of cool indifference to protect my own interests. I wasn’t being considerate to God’s will or upholding the church’s work. I knew well that Sister Chen wasn’t serious about her duty and just muddled through, and she’d already harmed our gospel work. I should have pointed this out in fellowship. But I was afraid she’d say I should mind my own business, so I just skimmed over her problems. She didn’t remotely change after that. I wanted to mention it again, to dissect the nature and consequences of doing her duty that way, but I was afraid I’d offend her, then she might make things difficult for me and get me dismissed from my duty. I turned a blind eye and brushed it off. I hadn’t dared stand up for the sake of God’s house just to protect my own face, status, and interests, while I watched a team leader muddle through her duty. Where was my conscience? Disasters are getting worse and worse, so there must be more people investigating the true way. Getting people to accept God’s salvation of the last days is an urgent priority. But I wasn’t taking responsibility for this. I just wanted to protect myself, not the interests of God’s house. That wasn’t being considerate of God’s will. I was so selfish. These thoughts left me feeling that I’d really let God down. I thought, “I can’t keep on like this. I have to find a way to resolve this problem.” I reached out to some brothers and sisters on the team to discuss it and see how we could address Sister Chen’s issue. Everyone unanimously agreed that she should have someone working with her to share the load. That way they could help each other and keep an eye on each other.
That same afternoon, I called Sister Chen and told her about what we’d discussed, and went into detail about her recent performance and the damage she’d done to the gospel work. To my surprise, Sister Chen didn’t have the slightest regret or remorse for her behavior, but flat-out rejected our plan. She stubbornly said she didn’t need anyone to work with her. Seeing she had no self-awareness, I continued to fellowship with her, but before I could even finish, she said she had something to do and hung up. I was thinking, “Sister Chen has status but doesn’t do practical work and doesn’t want a partner. Isn’t that tyrannical? If this goes on, the work of God’s house will be held up. I have to point out this problem to her.” For the next few days, I kept sending her messages but she never responded. I was just watching the work of God’s house be held up. I was thinking I couldn’t lose any time in reporting this to the church leader, but just as I was about to do that, I wanted to turn tail again. I thought, “If Sister Chen finds out I was the one who talked to the leader, what will happen? What will I do if she’s offended and finds an excuse to dismiss me from my duty? And what if the brothers and sisters say I’m always on Sister Chen’s case and I’m not treating her fairly?” I felt really conflicted. If I didn’t say something, I’d just be watching the team’s work flounder. But if I did say something, I might offend her. Right then, a sister came to ask me if I was interested in joining another team. I thought, “Doing another duty would be great, then I could leave my team behind. I wouldn’t feel guilty and tormented every day.” I shared my thoughts with another sister on the team later. She heard me out and then said, “You’re the most senior member of our team and you’re most familiar with the work. Sister Chen is turning a blind eye to our team’s issues. Do you really think it’s the right time to leave?” I felt terrible when she said this. I realized that I did know the team’s work better than anyone else, and I was just idly watching the work of God’s house be disrupted. I not only turned a blind eye but wanted to turn tail. That wasn’t protecting the interests of God’s house. I came before God in prayer, asking Him to guide me.
I read a couple of passages of God’s words in my devotionals after that. God says, “You must enter from the side of positivity; be active and not passive. You must be unshaken by anyone or anything, in all situations, and you must not be influenced by anyone’s words. You must have a stable disposition; no matter what people say, you must immediately put into practice what you know to be the truth. You must always have My words at work inside of you, regardless of whom you might be facing; you must be able to stand firm in your testimony to Me and show consideration for My burdens. You must not be confused, agreeing blindly with people without having your own ideas; rather, you must have the courage to stand up and object to those things that do not come from Me. If you know clearly that something is wrong, yet you keep silent, then you are not a person who practices the truth. If you know that something is wrong, but then twist the topic around and are blocked by Satan, causing you to speak without any effect and to be unable to persevere until the end, then this means you still carry fear in your heart. Is it not then the case that your heart is still filled with Satan’s ideas?” (“Chapter 12” of Utterances of Christ in the Beginning in The Word Appears in the Flesh). “All of you say you are considerate of God’s burden and will defend the testimony of the church, but who among you has really been considerate of God’s burden? Ask yourself: Are you someone who has shown consideration for His burden? Can you practice righteousness for Him? Can you stand up and speak for Me? Can you steadfastly put the truth into practice? Are you bold enough to fight against all of Satan’s deeds? Would you be able to set your emotions aside and expose Satan for the sake of My truth? Can you allow My intentions to be fulfilled in you? Have you offered up your heart in the most crucial of moments? Are you someone who does My will? Ask yourself these questions, and think about them often” (“Chapter 13” of Utterances of Christ in the Beginning in The Word Appears in the Flesh). Reading question after question, I felt like God was standing right in front of me, calling me to account. Every word was a blow. I was also asking myself, “Have I been considerate of God’s burden? Have I practiced righteousness for God? Have I steadfastly practiced the truth?” The answers were all “No.” I’d been elevated to do such an important duty by God’s grace, so I should take responsibility and work with brothers and sisters to do it well. I saw the team leader muddle through, holding up the gospel work time and again. She was a false leader who didn’t do practical work. I should have stood up and reported her. But I was afraid of offending her and losing my duty, so I buried my head in the sand and just watched her disrupt the work of God’s house. I didn’t take a stand to protect it. I was so selfish and despicable. I had no sense of justice or responsibility! I protected my face and status at every turn. Even though I’d never disrupted the gospel work of God’s house like Sister Chen, I kept quiet on a problem I saw and didn’t practice the truth. Wasn’t that standing on Satan’s side, just letting it sabotage the work of God’s house? Wasn’t I favoring an outsider, biting the hand that fed me to act as Satan’s helper? That thought really made me hate myself. How could I have been so selfish, so devoid of humanity? I knew I couldn’t keep on like that. I couldn’t keep walking on eggshells, just protecting myself. I had to practice the truth, be a person with a sense of justice, stand on God’s side and protect the interests of His house. I decided to report Sister Chen at that moment. Just then, I heard from a sister that some new believers had become weak and negative after hearing rumors. Sister Chen hadn’t coordinated fellowship and testimony for them in time, so they’d nearly given up their faith because they’d been misled. I despised myself when I heard this. This was the terrible consequence of me not practicing the truth! After that, some of us from the team all told the church leader about Sister Chen’s issues together. I was surprised that he looked into it and dismissed her that same day. The leader reprimanded me later, saying, “She’s been holding things up this long, but you never spoke up about it?” I was even more regretful and guilty when I heard that.
I later reflected on myself, on why I knew she wasn’t responsible in her duty and always held up the work of God’s house, but never stood up to expose and report her. What was the root of me not practicing the truth? I read these words from God: “For example, why are you selfish? Why do you protect your own position? Why are your emotions so strong? Why do you like those unrighteous things? Why do you like those evils? What is the basis for your liking such things? Where do these things come from? Why are you so happy to accept them? By now, you all have come to understand that the main reason behind all these things is that they contain Satan’s poison. As for what Satan’s poison is, it can be fully expressed with words. For example, if you ask some evildoers why they act that way, they will answer, ‘Every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost.’ This single phrase expresses the very root of the problem. The logic of Satan has become people’s lives. They may do things for this purpose or that, but they are only doing it for themselves. People all think that since it is every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost, they should live for their own sakes, doing everything in their power to secure a good position and what food and clothing they need. ‘Every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost’—this is the life and the philosophy of man, and it also represents human nature. This statement is precisely Satan’s poison, and when internalized by people, it becomes their nature. Satan’s nature is exposed through these words; they completely represent it. This poison becomes people’s lives as well as the foundation of their existence, and corrupted humanity has been consistently dominated by this poison for thousands of years” (“How to Walk the Path of Peter” in Records of Christ’s Talks). God’s words showed me the reason behind not practicing the truth was that I was filled with Satan’s philosophies for living, like “Every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost,” “Sensible people are good at self-protection, seeking only to avoid making mistakes,” “Let things drift if they do not affect one personally,” “The less trouble, the better,” and “The nail that sticks out gets hammered down.” They’d become a part of me long ago. They’d become my life. I’d become selfish, crafty, and self-interested because I’d been living by those things. I just couldn’t help but protect my own interests in the face of a problem. Before I was a believer, in my professional and personal life, as soon as I was afraid something might offend someone, even if they did something wrong, I’d stay silent. I kept living by these satanic philosophies even after becoming a believer. I couldn’t help but be protective over my interests in my duty, then I couldn’t practice the truth. Sister Chen was an example of that. I saw she wasn’t doing practical work and couldn’t take feedback, that she was a false leader, so I should’ve taken a stand and reported her. But I was afraid my report wouldn’t get anywhere and I’d lose my duty. “The nail that sticks out gets hammered down,” and “The less trouble, the better” were my life philosophies. I was a coward. I let an irresponsible person disrupt things without daring to take a stand. I’d been so selfish and deceitful. Doing my duty and protecting the interests of God’s house is a positive thing and it’s in line with God’s will. When someone is disruptive to the work of God’s house, it’s exactly the time to stand on God’s side and protect His interests. God requires this of His chosen. It’s my duty and responsibility. But I was afraid of sticking my neck out, of compromising my interests, so I didn’t dare stand up for the work of God’s house. I didn’t fulfill my duty or responsibilities. What kind of believer was I? I didn’t stick my neck out, but instead compromised with Satan and buried my head in the sand. I allowed an irresponsible person to disrupt the work of God’s house. I didn’t dare take a stand. I didn’t have any backbone at all. I was living without any integrity or dignity. I saw very clearly that she was disrupting the work of God’s house, but I not only turned a blind eye but wanted to run away from it. Wasn’t that standing on Satan’s side, opposing God? That’s a major transgression to God. Really thinking about it, I couldn’t practice the truth and I was afraid I’d lose my duty if I reported Sister Chen. But what really happened was that after we all reported Sister Chen she was dismissed right away. This fact made me feel ashamed and it showed me that in God’s house, Christ and the truth prevail. It’s a bright and just rule. Anyone who doesn’t practice the truth and hinders the work of God’s house can’t gain a foothold there. They’ll be eliminated at some point if they don’t repent. But I wasn’t looking at the things based on the principles of the truth. I was just constrained by power and status. I saw the person in charge as my superior and thought that if I offended her, I wouldn’t be able to gain a foothold in God’s house. I thought God’s house was just as dark as the world, without any fairness or justice. Wasn’t I blaspheming God? Without God exposing me by setting up that environment, without the judgment and chastisement of His words, I still wouldn’t know what terrible consequences come from living by satanic philosophies. Something I really learned from this is that, as a believer, living by God’s words, practicing the truth, and upholding principles really brings me peace and tranquility. It’s also a righteous thing that a believer should do. Later on, all of us in the team fellowshiped on what we’d experienced and gained. Everyone had learned lessons to varying degrees, especially about God’s righteous disposition. The work in our team gradually took a turn for the better.
In my duty after that, after over a month of discussions on church work with Sister Liu, the leader of another team, I found that she was arrogant and autocratic. She hardly ever accepted other people’s suggestions and she’d already disrupted the work of God’s house. I knew that I should let the church leader know this time. But then I thought, “We haven’t worked together very long, so I don’t know her all that well. Could I be wrong about this? What if it’s looked into and it turns out she doesn’t have a big problem? What will the leader and the others think of me? Will they think I’m nitpicking? And what would Sister Liu think of me if she found out? Never mind, I shouldn’t say anything.” I was just about to sweep this under the rug but I felt really accused by my conscience. I remembered how before the gospel work had really been compromised because I hadn’t reported Sister Chen in time. I deeply regretted that. I thought, “I can’t live according to my selfish, despicable disposition. I can’t be left with regrets this time.” A passage of God’s words occurred to me just then: “For each of you fulfilling your duty, no matter how profoundly you understand the truth, if you wish to enter the reality of the truth, then the simplest way to practice is to think of the interests of God’s house in everything you do, and to let go of your selfish desires, your individual intent, motives, face, and status. Put the interests of God’s house first—this is the least you should do. If a person performing their duty cannot do even this much, then how can they be said to be performing their duty? This is not performing one’s duty. You should first consider the interests of God’s house, consider God’s own interests, and consider His work, and put these considerations first and foremost; only after that can you think about the stability of your status or how others see you” (“Give Your True Heart to God, and You Can Obtain the Truth” in Records of Christ’s Talks). God’s words gave me a path of practice, which is putting the interests of God’s house first without considering my own. I shouldn’t care what others think of me, but do what’s right for the work of God’s house. We hadn’t known each other long and I didn’t know her all that well, but I really had seen that her behavior had disrupted the work of God’s house. I knew I should share what I’d seen, correct my motives, and fulfill my duty and responsibilities. I later told the leader about Sister Liu’s issues and after investigating it, she was dismissed in accordance with the principles. I felt assured and comforted when I heard the news and I felt I’d upheld the interests of God’s house. I also really experienced that the only way to live meaningfully is to live by God’s words.
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2020.09.28 22:57 OphidianEtMalus I had a moment as I read the "Hearts Pierced" article in the current Ensign so I made a first-draft parody of it by inserting a few lines here and there. Basically this is the opposite of a TL;DR but maybe it will make reading the article more fun/useful for some.

Really, some of this original article is pretty good, especially the "How can I help?" section. But, it's so full of gas-lighting, lack of self-awareness, etc, that it's ripe for parody. THis is definatly a quick first draft but I hope you enjoy it:
Recently I was called by a broken-hearted father. His daughter Donna (names have been changed) was away at college in a new relationship, and it was moving fast. Her boyfriend, Boyd, had prayed about their relationship and was pushing for marriage and limiting Donna’s communication with her parents. Donna apologized to them, explaining it as Boyd’s strong love and desire to spend time as a couple, preparing for a divine heterosexual union.
Donna’s family became concerned when they discovered that Boyd had a deceased ex-wife, and a living ex-wife and child he had not mentioned to Donna. They wanted to know the status of these women's eternal sealing to Boyd. Would Donna become a first, second or third wife? Lacking any sense of boundaries but having access to a network of ward directories, Donna’s family called the ex-wife, who said Boyd had an ugly temper, was jealous and suspicious of same-sex friendships, and demanding regular service of his “Little Factory.” When Boyd found out about the call he became righteously enraged. He said Donna’s parents were “controlling” and cited a time they disapproved of a sarcastic joke he made about Donna’s recent contribution in ward council. Boyd insisted that Donna start acting like the mother and help-meet she was intended to be by making her own decisions to follow his patriarchal council and cutting off her family. Donna’s parents were desperate as their calls and texts were now going unanswered.
Everyone wants a happy family, but even when people try to live the gospel, relationships can become hurtful. Some challenges are a result of the misunderstandings and frictions common to families. However, in healthy relationships, both people and institutions apologize for poor behavior and mend rifts, while in unhealthy situations, there are ongoing patterns of harshness or maltreatment that become abusive.

Domestic Abuse and the Gospel

“Ye have broken the hearts of your tender wives and lost the confidence of your children” (Jacob 2:35).
Abuse consists of actions intended to hurt or control. If the party that hurts or controls you didn’t intend to cause harm then, as the saying goes, no foul. True abuse consists of a range of behaviors that may include control of the victim’s behavior, access to information, thoughts, and emotions, commonly abbreviated as BITE. Such control may be manifest as neglect, manipulation, verbal criticisms, and physical or sexual violence.1 Our theological siblings, the FLDS, use the term “Keep sweet” to summarize the ways they expect traumatized members to behave. Unfortunately, abusive behaviors are common, with some scholars estimating that about a quarter of children worldwide are mistreated physically, sexually or emotionally.2 Adults also have high rates of victimization, with approximately 1 in 4 women and 1 in 10 men experiencing physical violence from a spouse.
Abuse can happen in any relationship, and both men and women can be perpetrators. However, priesthood holders are more likely to be controlling and to commit severe emotional, physical and sexual violence, and women are more likely to be terrorized, dominated, or badly hurt by a spouse. 3
Abuse harms the soul of both the offender and the victim and, when perpetrated outside of one’s priesthood stewardship, is contrary to the teachings of the Savior. Modern prophets have stated that those “who abuse spouse or offspring … will one day stand accountable before God.”4 Abusers may ignore or exploit principles of the gospel but more often, they simply follow the examples of their own fathers and leaders. Commonly they use passive aggression and emotional manipulation. For this, there is some excuse because the church does not incorporate lessons on positive behaviour in any of our regular, correlated lesson times. Nor has the church until very recently, provided any sort of training on how to recognize and prevent abuse. It should be noted that our current training in almost entirely inadequate and, in the jurisdictions of many members, some of the advice given is actually contrary to the law. For example, I counseled a couple where the husband pursued emotional affairs and gambled away their savings, but instead of apologizing, he pressured his wife to forgive and insisted she had the “greater sin” if she didn’t forgive him. He dismissed her pain and claimed he was right with God or he wouldn’t be a temple worker. When his wife talked to Church leaders, he downplayed his betrayals and exaggerated her concerns, saying she was depressed. The husband was rejecting “principles of … respect, love, [and] compassion”5 and mistreating his wife. Her efforts to live gospel principles could not fix a problem he was creating. When allegations of child abuse surfaced, I was able to call our lawfirm, rather than alert the relevant authorieis, but that is because I live in Utah.
Each of us can give in to unhealthy behaviors. There are certain characteristics common to all types of abuse, and the more severe and frequent these are, the less healthy the relationship will be. Here are five of these typical abusive patterns that can help you recognize unhealthy behaviors in yourself and others.

1. Cruelty

“With their tongues they have used deceit; the poison of asps is under their lips: … [their] mouth is full of cursing and bitterness” (Romans 3:13–14).
One woman came to see me for therapy against the wishes of her husband, who mocked her for “needing to trust the Lord.” At church she was friendly and devout, but at home she wondered if if she would be her husbands second wife or not. She spent every day on the phone with her mother, where they talked about their role in the priesthood and seemed to be questioning the Brethren. Critical people feel justified in causing pain and “love to have others suffer” (Doctrine and Covenants 121:13) and she certainly belittled his patriarchal role by attempting to require a monogamous, co-equal relationship. Such family members break Jesus’s commands to “judge not” and “condemn not” (Luke 6:37) as they belittle, show disgust, or call names. Following the example of a senior apostle, I just chuckled at her concerns and ask that you do the same.

2. Deception

“Thou art possessed with a lying spirit, and ye have put off the Spirit of God” (Alma 30:42).
Deception pervades abuse as perpetrators minimize their actions, blame others, and twist words. Such deception is popularly termed “gaslighing” and used to good effect throughout the correlated materials of the church. This bewilders victims, as one of my research participants described: “[My husband would] freak out and then do the apologizing thing and then say, ‘Well it’s your fault anyway’ … on and on until I started believing that.”6 This denial of another’s reality is called gaslighting, and it leaves victims confused and insecure about their memories and opinions. Like other forms of deception, gaslighting is used to manipulate conversations and put forth a false front. As a church leader, you might use the phrase “I can’t think of a time when I didn’t know…” when someone asks about Brother Joseph’s polygamy or any of the other issues touched lightly upon in the Essays.
Those who abuse others vigorously resist admitting that they are hurtful and often will claim they are victims. When Donna expressed unease about Boyd’s criticism of her parents, he got angry and insisted she was “insulting” him. Boyd was among “those who cry transgression … and are the children of disobedience themselves” (Doctrine and Covenants 121:17). He not only promoted his false story but also resented the truth.7

3. Excuses

“Acknowledge your faults and that wrong which ye have done” (Alma 39:13).
A humble person feels regret at hurting others and repents and does better. Someone who is abusive resists the call of conscience with excuses. As a proud and wooden member of the twelve was careful to emphasize “I know that the history of the church is not to seek apologies or to give them. We sometimes look back on issues and say, 'Maybe that was counterproductive for what we wish to achieve,' but we look forward and not backward." The church doesn't "seek apologies," he said, "and we don't give them."
Similarly, one of my research participants recalled, “I’d feel horrible about the physical abuse, and then later I would think it might not have happened if she would have just kept her mouth shut.”
In therapy, I once told a wife that I had never witnessed her showing godly sorrow for years of criticizing her husband. Her response was not regret but sulking: “Great, here is another thing I am not doing!” Abusive people reject responsibility and are touchy and defensive. They are easily offended by small things. All three of these people noted “that the word "apology" doesn't appear in LDS scriptures. Their “sorrowing was not unto repentance” (Mormon 2:13) but instead was pushed aside with bitter anger and blame the way our leaders and their law firm have taught us.
In a recent masterstroke of proper application of these principles, a woman credibly accused a Bishop of sexual impropriety and obtained a confession. In response, our organization facilitated the collection and dissemination of information about her and her adopted daughter in a way that caused them to withdraw from the public discussion in a shower of accusations, shame, and distrust. It’s like the accusations never happened and the Bishop can continue his backroom service.

4. Pride

“In lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves” (Philippians 2:3).
Pride includes entitlement and self-centeredness. One man is recorded in the History of the CHurch as stating “ I have more to boast of than ever any man had. I am the only man that has ever been able to keep a whole church together since the days of Adam... Neither Paul, John, Peter, nor Jesus ever did it. I boast that no man ever did such work as I. The followers of Jesus ran away from Him; but the Latter-day Saints never ran away from me yet.” If people’s opinions didn’t comply with his, they were “undermining” him or “not being obedient” and he might even break their printing press. Today we simply tell you to “doubt your doubts” and excommunicate you or otherwise harm your reputation. Pride is competitive and focused on power and winning. It is not a disruptive same-sex parade. In contrast, a healthy family is cooperative, where there is a balance of fairness, and members “deal justly one with another” (4 Nephi 1:2). Spouses should be equal partners (but not, of course, when it comes to the priesthood),8 where each has a say and all opinions are valued.

5. Control

“When we … exercise control or dominion or compulsion upon the souls of the children of men, … the heavens withdraw themselves” (Doctrine and Covenants 121:37).
Although we value agency, it is surprising how often family members tell each other how to think, feel, and act. A you should have learned in chapter 35 of the Gospel Principles manual “It is better to obey the commandments because we fear punishment than not to obey them at all.” Some even control through intimidation, shame, withdrawal of love, or threats. Don’t believe me--mock up a letter from QuitMormo with your name highlighted and show your closest relatives. Do you think their love will remain unchanged? One husband had rigid expectations that his wife should prepare breakfast every day at a certain time (usually cracked wheat), meet specific intimate requests (it’s ok Sister, we rescinded that prohibition in 1982), and listen to him regarding his “concerns,” which usually involved how she could improve because she was home all day while he had to work. He monitored her spending and became angry if she didn’t quickly respond to his texts. It is not her place to consider polyandry, even if it’s just through some day-time TV.
Another mother expressed regular disappointment to her teenage daughter any time the girl showed he shoulders or didn’t live up to the mother’s standards. If the expectations were not met, or if her husband expressed concerns, she icily gave everyone the silent treatment. Again, though we don’t explicitly use the term “Keep sweet” you know what it means and you’d better keep up those appearances.

Hope and Healing

“I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears: behold, I will heal thee” (2 Kings 20:5).
Although abuse is heartbreaking, change is always possible. Victims can reach out to spiritual and professional resources, including non-church therapists, and seek the power of the state's legal process to heal their wounds, if not their bank account. To find help, go to https://www.reddit.com/exmormon/ , https://quitmormon.com/ , https://www.mormonstories.org/ , and even our own church resources at https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/manual/gospel-topics-essays/essays?lang=eng (though mind the ellipses and follow those footnotes) and for images of the original historical documents, try https://www.josephsmithpapers.org/
While we will never admit it to those who have been abused: You were always worthy, whole, and just. We should have responded to you with love and compassion. We failed. We suck.
Those of us who have been abusive must repent and seek help, unless they are church leaders or have been counselled otherwise by our lawyers. This requires going “down into the depths of humility” (3 Nephi 12:2) and accepting full responsibility for their behavior. Change takes more than short-term promises and surface efforts. The pain of deep repentance is soul-wrenching, and some will not be willing to do it, which leaves victims with difficult decisions about how to protect themselves.9
Our Heavenly Father is concerned about us just like the anguished father who called me about his daughter. God’s love is as “wide as eternity” (Moses 7:41), and He is deeply pained when His children hurt each other. In a tender conversation with Enoch, He weeps. “These thy brethren; they are the workmanship of mine own hands, … and [I have] given commandment, that they should love one another, … but behold, they are without affection, and they hate their own blood” (Moses 7:32–33). There is weeping in heaven and on earth when bodies and souls are wounded. Yet, with humility, God’s power, and professional help when necessary (which is more often than your bishop will admit), it is possible to stop damaging behavior and create a home of dignity, safety, and love.
“The voice that bears profound testimony, utters fervent prayer, and sings the hymns of Zion can be the same voice that berates and criticizes, embarrasses and demeans, inflicts pain and destroys the spirit of oneself and of others in the process. ‘Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing,’ James grieves.[James 3:10].” ‘My brethren [and sisters], check out my example! Elder Jeffrey R. Holland of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, “The Tongue of Angels,” Ensign, May 2007, 16.
How Can I Help? For Friends and Leaders
“[We] are willing to mourn with those who mourn; yea, and comfort those who stand in need of comfort” (Mosiah 18:9) unless they accuse one who is in power or a male.”
Many of us know victims of abuse, whether we are aware of it or not. Leaders will be approached by hurting ward members, and almost everyone has friends or family who have been mistreated. We will provide no substantive training on how to work with such members. Outsiders are usually sympathetic but may not know how to help because they have never been exposed to cult-like behaviour. Here are guidelines to consider as we minister to those struggling.
Be supportive, not directive. It is disturbing to hear of pain, and we may react with strong emotions and advice, like: “You need to leave now” or, “contact a lawyer.” (This latter is reserved for Bishops and Stake Presidents in sticky situations). It is rarely helpful to push, unless people are physically unsafe or underage. In these cases, it is important to contact law enforcement, women’s shelters, or hotlines (but we won’t address this in any manuals.) When children witness or experience physical or sexual abuse, child protective services should also be notified. However, in most conflicts, victims benefit from support rather than force, which has the effect of silencing them or disrespecting their agency. Those in toxic situations face difficult choices and have usually considered them at length. Listen carefully to understand the details and ask questions rather than pile on pressure.
Don’t judge or preach. You are a judge in Zion and in the Church we have high ideals about families, and many feel like they aren’t living up to them. In families with problematic interactions, this gap can be magnified by you, leading to further shame and secrecy. Those who are desperate to make things better are often the ones being mistreated and blamed. Consider rescinding their temple recommend or sacramental rites. It can intensify self-blame when outsiders say things like: “Did you orgasm?” or “If you are patient and forgiving, I am sure it will get better.” This is one reason those in turmoil are hesitant to discuss it—they don’t want to be seen as a victim or feel worse about their own inadequacies and unworthyness.
Take it seriously. Some who open up about their mistreatment are met with skepticism or doubt by their bishops. This can happen because, again, there is no particular training for such relatively affluent, strong jawed, light skinned men. Such outsiders usually have incomplete and often flawed perceptions and lack of empathy. For example, there is a myth that violence is only committed by villains who look menacing. However, most abuse in families happens from otherwise typical folks who may present themselves well at church. We struggle with this reality. How can our friend who is an amiable reciter of Sunday School manuals also have a dark side at home? If a story doesn’t fit the preconceptions of the bishop, it may be dismissed or minimized. Yet research shows that false accusations of abuse, especially from those with less power in the family, are rare, and many victims don’t speak up at all. Take all abuse reports seriously and start from a position of belief.
Don’t rush to judgment. Leaders and professionals often hear contradictory stories from family members, and it is tempting to pick sides. In some cases, there are obvious victims and perpetrators, but in others there is fault on many sides and the truth is almost impossible to disentangle. Adding to the confusion is the reality that while it is important to believe victims, many who abuse are charming and will also claim they are victimized and may paint their victims as aggressors. For example, a controlling spouse may preempt a visit to a bishop or therapist by calling ahead to plant damaging stories against their partner. Outsiders often assume they can detect lies, but chronic deceivers wear a facade very convincingly. The Lord warns leaders of “hypocrites among you, who have deceived some” (Doctrine and Covenants 50:7), and at times this deception is confusing to those trying to help.
Watch for red flags. There are endless variations of how mistreatment occurs in families, but there are certain warning signs that should be discussed in more depth if a leader or friend hears them. These include the elements presented in this article: cruelty, deception, excuses, pride, and control. Additionally, it is a bad sign if there is jealousy, monitoring, badgering, highly contradictory stories, coercion related to intimacy or money, or a refusal to get help. Any physical or sexual violence should always be taken seriously and discussed with professionals. If minors are involved as victims or witnesses, the abuse must be reported.
Fortunately, domestic abuse rates are decreasing in many countries because people are breaking free of the arbitrary religious rules that bind the helpless to their abusers, and public awareness of all types of assault is on the rise and laws (that we occasionally flaunt) are being passed to penalize abusers.10 However, many still suffer alone, and “the sobbings of their hearts ascend up to God” (Jacob 2:35). Let us reach out to these hurting hearts with Christlike love and support.
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2020.09.28 15:13 reverthelp EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT PROPHET MUHAMMAD (PBUH)

THE SUNNA OF THE PROPHET (peace and blessings be upon Him ): The Sunna’s Role. Part 1
The Sunna has two main functions.
  1. First, it enjoins and prohibits, lays down the principles related to establishing all religious obligations and necessities, and determines what is lawful or unlawful.
  2. Second, it interprets the Qur’an.
In each daily prescribed prayer, we recite:
Guide us to the Straight Path, to the path of those you have blessed, not of those who incurred (Your) wrath, nor of the misguided (1:5–7).
The verses mention but do not specify, two groups of people. According to the Prophet, those who incurred God’s wrath are Jews who have gone astray, and the misguided are Christians who have gone astray. ( Tirmidhi, “Tafsir al-Qur’an,” 2; Tabari, “Tafsir,” 1:61, 64. )
The Jews killed many of their Prophets and caused trouble in many places. Although they had once followed Divine guidance and guided others to the Straight Path (during the times of Moses, David, and Solomon), over time many of them went astray and incurred both God’s wrath and public ignominy. Those who follow this way also are included in those who incurred (Your) wrath. Such Jews are condemned harshly in the Bible as well. In fact, the Bible is much harsher toward them than the Qur’an. In many verses, the Qur’an reproaches such Jews and Christians very mildly and compassionately.
At first, the Christians obeyed Jesus and followed his way despite severe persecution. They heroically resisted all forms of hypocrisy and Roman oppression. But over time, many came under the influence of various Middle Eastern religions and philosophies as well as Roman paganism. By the time Christianity became the Roman Empire’s official religion, it already was divided into many sects and had more than 300 Gospels in circulation. Although many remained devoted to the original creed of Jesus, many others contaminated these pure teachings with borrowed elements. The Qur’an, therefore, describes them as the misguided.
By making the above interpretation, the Prophet explained how people who had been blessed with Divine guidance could go astray and end up deserving God’s wrath. Thus, he warned Muslims not to follow such Jews and Christians.
Out of many examples showing how the Sunna interprets the Qur’an, we also cite the following:
• When the verse:
Those who believed and did not mix their belief with wrongdoing: for them is security and they are those who are truly guided (6:82)
was revealed, the Companions, well aware what wrongdoing meant, asked the Messenger fearfully:
“Is there one among us who has never done wrong?” The Messenger explained: “It’s not as you think. It’s as Luqman said to his son:
Don’t associate any partners with God; surely, associating partners with God is grave wrongdoing (31:13). ( Bukhari, “Tafsir,” 31/1. )
• ‘A’isha and Ibn Mas’ud are of the opinion that the mid-time prayer in:
Attend the prayers without any omission and the mid-time prayer (2:238)
is the afternoon prayer. Once ‘A’isha ordered her servant to write a copy of the Qur’an for her and reminded her:
“When you come to the verse: Attend the prayers without any omission, and the mid-time prayer, inform me.”
When this verse was to be copied out, ‘A’isha dictated to her servant: Attend the prayers without any omission, and the mid-time prayer, the afternoon prayer, and added: “This is what I heard from the Messenger.” ( Tirmidhi, “Tafsir al-Qur’an,” 3. )
Although there are some other interpretations, ‘A’isha and Ibn Mas’ud were certain that it was the afternoon prayer.
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2020.09.28 04:09 throw_RAutomatic Found out my (32F) gf (28F) has been using me as a scapegoat when her family asks about kids

When I met my now-girlfriend I made it clear I didn't ever want kids and she said she was totally on board. In the past four years we've been together she's turned out to be the more anti-children one of us. On the drive home after any wedding or birthday party or whatever she'll complain about some child who was whiny/disobedient/bugged her. I have never once had reason to suspect she secretly wanted kids or has since changed her mind about it.
We live in a rural area. As the only out queer couple in the adjoining three counties people tend to stick their noses in our business just out of curiosity. The community is tight-knit and gossips worse than a sewing circle, so in the past few months it's gotten back to me that my girlfriend's family has been grumbling about me keeping my gf from starting a family. I've always gotten along okay with the gf's family so this was unexpected.
I thought, okay, so they aren't as okay with their daughter being a lesbian as they put on. It's not the first time a family has projected their displeasure with their child's sexual orientation on to me like I'm out here converting girls into the cult or something. I just figured they wanted grandkids and had misplaced disappointment. I asked my gf to talk to her family and set the record straight that she didn't want kids herself and it was a mutual choice. She went and had dinner with her folks a week later where she said the matter was discussed and dealt with.
I thought things were handled until about a week ago. The thing about farm towns is there's only so many places people can meet up, and my cousin works at a bat that just reopened. My cousin starts her shift and sees my gf, gf's mom, and gf's niece at a table. She's too busy to say hi to them, but cousin tells me that while she's bussing tables she overhears my girlfriend's mom encouraging her to break up with me and find a partner who wants the same things in life. I don't take secondhand information for gospel even when it's coming from my own family, so I speak with my girlfriend and ask if she's been having any second thoughts about not having kids. She says no, of course not.
A couple days later my girlfriend's niece (19F) shoots me an email saying that my girlfriend wants a family, but since she loves me too much to leave I have a duty to end our relationship so she can find somebody to give her that. This sets off a wave of back-and-forth calls, texts, and vague social media posts involving all sorts of people. Long story short, I come to find out that girlfriend's family does want grandkids from her, but were under the assumption she'd use a sperm donor or adopt someday because kids are necessary for feelings of happiness and fulfillment in their eyes. My girlfriend didn't want to fess up and declare herself childfree to them, so she's just been using me as a scapegoat and saying I alone don't want a family and won't budge when she asks me to reconsider.
Girlfriend knows she's in the doghouse but insists she didn't really do anything wrong since it is true I don't want kids and won't change my mind. I told her I don't appreciate being held up as the controlling partner depriving her of "true happiness" just because she doesn't want to tell her family she hates kids. A part of me is dying to call up her mom and lay things out, but even though I'm being lied about I still recognize that that isn't my conversation to have. Drama in small towns blows up like a powderkeg and now I feel my personal relationship and reputation are being put on public trial. I'm also damn furious that my girlfriend will throw me under the bus to avoid an uncomfortable conversation, but I don't really know how if I'm overreacting when I start thinking maybe we should take a break? I just need some advice because right now I'm feeling betrayed and not like I can trust this woman I've been with four years if she can just easily lie to and about the most important people in her life.
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2020.09.27 06:00 Bucketsforlegs Questioned my partner about cheating and now she won't talk to me about our relationship?

TL;DR I spoke to my partner regarding some allegations she crossed a line at a party a few weeks ago, we spoke about our relationship after I confronted her and now she won't talk to me about what she's thinking and where we stand.
Just go along with me here.
I've (25M) have been with my partner (25F) for almost 2 years now. We have been living together for just over a year with no issues. Yesterday I received some news that a couple of weeks ago when my partner was at a handlebar party with some friends (basically you pedal around the city, stop off at bars all as a big group) she was acting very flirty, "handsy" a bit full on with a couple of other guys and "touchy feely". The issue i had was that this information was given to me by my sister who was told by her friends girlfriend that also happened to be there. I wasn't there because I had my own event to go to so this is all 'he said she said' bs. I was told that my partner got 'told off' by the person whos party it was for being flirty with her boyfriend and generally just being a bit full on with him. After this, she had moved to someone else and was apparently kissing his neck and being a bit touchy feely.
I'm not one to take peoples words for gospel so I spoke to the girl who's party it was and asked her to gice me her take. Her perception of events wasn't exactly helpful as it pertained more to her boyfriend and how they had a big fight afterwards etc. But what I could decipher was "she was very flirty, hands everywhere and holding hands with a few other guys on the night" This girl can be quite paranoid at the best of times, and so I asked her boyfriend who both me and my partner are mates with. He said that the only touching he saw was her consoling one of her friends after he had been having a rough time. After this they also went back to a friends place with a few others and he said nothing happened there either.
No one has said that she slept with anyone, only that she had crossed what they considered to be a line for someone in a long term relationship.
So I have differing events as to what happened that day, added in to this, she didn't tell me that they were going to a friends place that night and didn't message me in the morning when she wasn't home.
Now, im not a paranoid person, I trust my partner and I never snoop and ask her who she is with or where she's going when she goes out, she usually tells me leading up to the event which she had done in this case, but I did find it odd she didn't let me know she was saying the night with other friends instead of just ubering it home.
After the different accounts of the night I thought I'd better confront her about it. We spoke about it last night and her version was, forgive my paraphrasing: During the handlebar part, you only get a few drinks and she remembers everything and nothing happened. Shes disappointed that she put herself in the situation that people ended up thinking she had crossed a line. In terms of later on, she really doesn't think anything happened with anyone and she's quite certain nothing happened but her words were "i cant guarantee nothing happened because I was drunk and can't remember."
Now I tend to believe her but that end part has me a bit uneasy. We've never had an issue that relates to this before, and I've never had any concerns about other people before in our relationship.
After speaking about this we further talked about our relationship and how maybe we aren't as close the last few months as we were previously. I admit, I probably haven't been as present or observant as I should have been and we haven't really made time for 1 on 1 activities. We see friends a lot together but don't do a lot just the 2 of us, which again, I must shoulder most of the blame for that. I was concerned she was going to end things and she told me its a big step from the issues we have to breaking up. She went for a drive for a few hours after we spoke last night and this morning, I tried to ask her what she was thinking and she didn't really have anything for me. She's still trying to get her thoughts straight.
I'm trying to give her some space, I don't want to press her for anything if she isn't ready to talk, but I'm not really sure what to do.
What do other people think of the situation and what should be my go to next?
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